If I never set goals.....
Saturday, January 28, 2012
....then I will never achieve them.
My mind has been working overtime trying to look ahead to the future, setting weightloss goals for myself...
But I have the voice in the back of my head that says "ho hum..... here we go YET again. Here you go setting goals for yourself that you know are going to fizzle after a few days. WHY even bother???? You are always blogging on here about what you want to do and plan on doing, yet you never follow thru. Your Sparkfriends get sick of reading the same thing over and over and they are tired of hearing you dream big, but never achieving anything"
OK, so YES many times I have set goals for myself that didn't transpire. BUT I need to remind myself that this type of negative thinking is what kept me severely obese for 13 years. It wasn't until I started telling myself that I could do this and despite my many failures I HAD to try again. And I did it.... I lost the majority of my weight....
Now I am stuck in the vicious cycle of those "last 10-25 lbs". I got down to my all time low of 133 last October (see how awesome I look in my profile pic!) but very promptly regained 20 lbs. Now I am starting to lose it again.
But I am going to write down my goals here in my blog so I can come back and re-read it to motivate myself. It has worked for me before so I am doing it again.
*Wear my size 12 jeans for the next 2 weeks, then be able to get rid of them forever (NOT put them back up in my attic). Be wearing my size 10's, a little snuggish, but comfortable enough to wear. During our meeting at work they came out with a new dress code: "NO SWEATS". They want us looking more professional. A lot of ladies were upset, but I am cool with it. Motivation I need to keep up with my appearance and feel good about myself.
*Currently am not "feeling" like tracking my food, but I am just going to make a conscious effort to make the right choices. I KNOW what I need to do. No binging and getting myself back on the horrible cycle of non stop eating! That's not going to happen. They had donuts at our meeting this morning and I wasn't even tempted to grab one. They didn't even smell good! I LIKE this feeling.
*RUN! On the weekends in February do 5, 6, 7, then 8 miles (1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th weekend respectively) at a 1min run/1 min walk ratio. During the week run 2 miles straight thru twice a week. In March, increase my run/walk ratio to run for 2 min/walk 1 min. During the week do a 3 mile run staright thru twice a week. This is going to be my starting point for getting back into exercise.
So..... as a "reward" or something for me to look forward to is.... I am FINALLY going to schedule us to get family pictures done professionally. When the boys were little we were SO good at this! But as I got older and fatter, lol, I hated seeing myself in family pictures. Esp. since they would always place me right in front of my super skinny husband and it would accentuate how big I was. And even now that I HAVE lost a lot of weight, I still drag my feet because I am not at my lightest and am not happy with how big I am. So, giving myself Feb. and March I should be close to my lightest weight of 133 and I am going to do it. I put in for leave the 1st week of April and I will schedule them then.
Also, while I am on leave.... the week before Easter, I am going to treat myself to a pretty Easter outfit. Hopefully I can find a dress! Something that makes me feel girl-y. I have really held off on buying clothes (well, excepet when I found a $4.95 rack at Maurice's). I want to hold out for summer clothes. Every summer I tell myself I want to be fit and in shape and wear fitted, cute summer clothes, particularly a bathing suit that I feel good in. Yet every year I seem to gain right before summer hits and I have to wear my bigger stuff. I want this year to be different. Let me prove to myself that I CAN.