Today will be better.....
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I am struggling again..... I can't seem to get out of this "I don't feel good" rut. I know HOW to get out of it, it's just a matter of doing it. I have really been scaring myself with the overeating I have been doing. Not even junk food some times. Just food- the need to have something n my mouth at all times.
Yesterday was better. One thing that helped was I bought a bunch of crunchy raw veggies and had a plate of those with my dinner along w/2T lt bleu cheese dressing to dip them in. It was very tasty and satisfied the need to chew.... Also bought some fresh fruit with a lt cream cheese vanilla bean dip. That satisfied the sweet tooth. More calories than I need, but it is def. an improvement from the massive amounts of food I had been eating..... dang, having a food addiction is horrible!
Another thing that helped was I accomplished a project in my home that I had been wanting to do forever. We are turning our 4th bedroom into MY room. DH has given me free reign of what I want to do with it. For my bday ad Christmas last yr we bought the furniture I wanted... a nice L shaped desk and matching book shelf. Perfect for scrapbooking. We finally had the money and the time and we picked out hardwood floors this past weekend. And yesterday I painted it a very pretty, cheerful yellow. I initially wasn't feeling motivated too paint, but I had to do it before my floors get installed. But once I started I just couldn't quit. It looks so pretty and I am excited about decorating it and I can't wait for my floors!
So I was kept busy all night last night and didn't overeat.... just had an extra cup of diet hot cocoa (made with soy milk).... That was my binge for the evening which is a huge improvement over the past few days. I am determined to make today even better. Planned my meals for the day and it is my long day at work and I am playing taxi this evening.... also have to remove the tape from *MY* room.... still have plenty of fruits and veggies left. SO it's going to be a good one!