Full-Filled.....stru
ggles and my desire to change(301 to 52)

My balanced self said "you do not want to write 2 blogs/wk" and my unbalanced self said "I AGREE!!!!!!!"

I completed chapter 1 of Full-Filled and although I have done this exercise before I think my level of self honesty and self exploration has taken a new height.

BL update: lost .1. I am doing better with my sun salutations!!! AND I did get 80 min of strength training in...without battling to get it done! AHHH relaxed intentions...they work!!!

These are the remaining questions that I had to address for Week 1

What are my symptoms..(ya gotta know what the problems are)
I am 30 pounds overweight I am barely 5' 2 and have a short waist
I wear the same 4 pairs of pants every week and the same jeans or khakis on Friday Of course I mix tops but I feel so “limited”
I have multiple sizes of clothes in my closet and a lot of them I do not like
I don’t like to attend functions where I have to dress up…..No clothes or at least cute clothes
I do not like shopping for clothes because usually what I like does not look good on me. It is hard enough shopping for petites. There are only a few stores that I can find nice pants that don’t participate in making me look frumpy.
Occasional knee pain.
Feelings of defeat/depression about the above
Just don’t feel attractive at times

Away From Motivation(ya gotta know what you don't want)
I want to move away from negative thoughts about myself
I want to move away from inactivity
I want to move away from rewarding myself with food
I want to move away from guilty feelings based on my food choice
I want to move away from the feelings of disgust when I look in the mirror
I want to move away from having clothes that I don't like and don't flatter
I want to move a way from extreme behavior!

What is my towards motivation:(ya gotta know what you DO want)
I want balance
I want to desire to move
I want to be comfortable seeing my flesh in the mirror
I want to look good in my clothes
I want to turn heads in my 50's
I want to be able to eat what I like mindfully
I want to attain and maintain my weight loss goal
I want energy, flexibility and strength
I want a social life(despite the finances)
I want to think about something other than my weight, food and the need to exercise
I want the confidence to know that I can achieve any goal that I set with time and patience


The dream( ya gotta see what you want to be)
I am 52 yrs old and I have lost 30 pounds. My friends and family are like OMG you look so good (yes there are those who are saying you need to gain some weight). My self confidence allows me to appreciate their accolades but does not lead me to sabotage my progress because of the not so positive comments. My mission now is to continue my self development track by trying new things in order see what it is that I really like. Because these tools are universal I am using these principles in every area of my life and others are drawn to me because they desire to be free from their struggles. I am that vessel; showing others how to break free from the chains that are confining them.
AHHHHH This feels so good!
Have a great week Family!!!