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Full-Filled.....stru
ggles and my desire to change

Monday, January 16, 2012



My BL challenge propels me to deal with the physical BUT if I don't deal with the inner/spiritual/emotional side success will not be permanent!

I have been a fan of Inside out weight loss and Renee' Stephens has book out called Full Filled. She has taken the principles from her IOWL Podcast and put it in book form with some extras! I decided after much debate that I would purchase the book. This morning I downloaded it to my nook app on my tablet(Toshiba Thrive...love it). After I completed the first question and responded on our (IOWL) team page. I thought...share this with your friends. (I am not always wanting to be this transparent) SO I will do this AGAIN... I was blogging about it 2 yrs ago but quit. Quitters never win so I will continue to blog about my ups and downs until I reach my goal and then I will challenge myself to continue the journey because maintenance is not a picnic!!!


Digging in!
What specific behaviors do I want to change?

I want to change my obsession with food. I do think it is because of the diet plans that I have been on. What are you eating for breakfast, lunch, dinner, have you shopped, have you planned, how many calories, is this a healthy choice.....it goes on and on. I think my desire to change my eating habits have evolved into obsession. And now it is draining me. I know those things are important but should not be an obsession........ I want balance,

I want to change my negative thinking about my body. I thought I was doing better but as I sit this morning every stinking thinking though that I have fought with still creeps into my mind.

I want to change my lack of desire to exercise or move around period. I know it is because of my mental fatigue at the end of my work week. I want to kick back and relax.... that is my form of stress relief but it will cause me more harm than good over the long haul. There has never been an athletic bone in my body but I did enjoy going out to dance. That does not happen anymore... I no longer desire going out to clubs because people think you are on the hunt.... sigh

I would like to change my need to reward myself for making it to Friday. I tend to go to Starbucks on Fridays. I have changed it to every other Friday. LOL (partially because it is to doggone expensive) There are some things I have in mind about this!

I know that I have made some progress because I have lost some weight and I am exercising more than ever. Just lacking consistency and desire! (part of this is I am not a winter person at ALL)

Most of all I want to stop looking for quick fixes and remedies and deal with the process
Impatience is not my friend.

Onward and Upward!

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  • no profile photo CD9345843
    Very thought provoking blog. Thanks for sharing :)
    3291 days ago
  • no profile photo RENEEASTEPHENS
    So glad you are back-you've already self-corrected. :)
    Sending you love and support! emoticon
    3292 days ago
  • CANDOIT54
    Great blog!!

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    I hate everything about winter-cold and snow.

    3292 days ago
  • JBIRD85
    That is something that is hard for me too when it comes to diet...balance. I can do it great with exercise, but I have such a hard, hard time not having that all or nothing thinking.
    The intention that I have set is to be relaxed, but mindful of my eating (in the past relaxed meant eating everything that I wanted in the moment).
    3293 days ago
  • KALIGIRL
    Thoughtful 'change' goals - sounds to me like
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    3293 days ago
  • GOOZLEBEAR
    Great blog! emoticon
    3293 days ago
  • CAREN_BLUEJEANS
    Love your MLK wall paper!
    3294 days ago
  • KARENA228
    I feel that way too sometimes about being obsessed with food and eating right. I think the longer you do eat the right way, the easier it becomes. However, sometimes I think that maybe I'm better off being "obsessed" with eating right and exercising. I can think of a whole lot of other things that are worse.

    Anyway, as you know my motto is "just keep trying"...


    3294 days ago
  • LE7_1234
    Don't think of it as quitting--thing of it as taking a break to let things soak in. :-)
    3294 days ago
  • LETSGOPLAY
    emoticon I am not liking this winter at all-no snow and colder than usual.
    It's harder for me to get going with exercise.
    I think dancing is great-but you are right about people thinking you are out for the hunt emoticon
    I used to take Tango and loved it but my DH didn't go with me and it was a problem -hey I came JUST to dance!
    I'm glad you shared what you learned. I hope to be able to eat intuitively at some point but I do need to track just so I don't over eat-but I am sick of having to plan it out too.
    It is a long journey and as you said maintenance is no picnic either-OH-I don't mean to sound negative emoticon
    but it is the truth.
    I hope you can find a dance class on Friday. It is probably not what you will feel like doing but once you get there you'll have fun

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    3294 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/16/2012 9:54:40 AM
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