Full-Filled.....stru
ggles and my desire to change

My BL challenge propels me to deal with the physical BUT if I don't deal with the inner/spiritual/emotional side success will not be permanent!

I have been a fan of Inside out weight loss and Renee' Stephens has book out called Full Filled. She has taken the principles from her IOWL Podcast and put it in book form with some extras! I decided after much debate that I would purchase the book. This morning I downloaded it to my nook app on my tablet(Toshiba Thrive...love it). After I completed the first question and responded on our (IOWL) team page. I thought...share this with your friends. (I am not always wanting to be this transparent) SO I will do this AGAIN... I was blogging about it 2 yrs ago but quit. Quitters never win so I will continue to blog about my ups and downs until I reach my goal and then I will challenge myself to continue the journey because maintenance is not a picnic!!!


Digging in!
What specific behaviors do I want to change?

I want to change my obsession with food. I do think it is because of the diet plans that I have been on. What are you eating for breakfast, lunch, dinner, have you shopped, have you planned, how many calories, is this a healthy choice.....it goes on and on. I think my desire to change my eating habits have evolved into obsession. And now it is draining me. I know those things are important but should not be an obsession........ I want balance,

I want to change my negative thinking about my body. I thought I was doing better but as I sit this morning every stinking thinking though that I have fought with still creeps into my mind.

I want to change my lack of desire to exercise or move around period. I know it is because of my mental fatigue at the end of my work week. I want to kick back and relax.... that is my form of stress relief but it will cause me more harm than good over the long haul. There has never been an athletic bone in my body but I did enjoy going out to dance. That does not happen anymore... I no longer desire going out to clubs because people think you are on the hunt.... sigh

I would like to change my need to reward myself for making it to Friday. I tend to go to Starbucks on Fridays. I have changed it to every other Friday. LOL (partially because it is to doggone expensive) There are some things I have in mind about this!

I know that I have made some progress because I have lost some weight and I am exercising more than ever. Just lacking consistency and desire! (part of this is I am not a winter person at ALL)

Most of all I want to stop looking for quick fixes and remedies and deal with the process
Impatience is not my friend.

Onward and Upward!

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