10 days since my last blog
Saturday, January 14, 2012
I wish I could say I've been doing everything I should to move forward...but I can't. I've made some progress but no where near what I planned. On a positive note I've taken some small steps towards getting back on program. Every step in a positive direction counts!
I know I can't control situations in my life but I can CONTROL the way I react to them.... I'm still working on this.
I feel like I just come up for air..things are going a bit more smoothly and then BAM!!!! something else happens. I'm trying to understand the lesson in it all...what do I need to gain from it so I can move forward. I am in a much better place then I was... and I KNOW I have the resolve to get through it all..... but.....can I please just get a few months without another challenge/catastrophy? lolol
Granted... I was at my lowest point when I really took control of my health/weight issues (it seemed the only thing I DID have control over) ... and I turned it around in my favor. So I know that I have it in me to rise to the challenge. As I writing this and re-reading it I KNOW what I have to do. Just keep moving forward! Do my best! Maybe it's back to small steps but each little step forward brings you closer to your goal.
It's Saturday... night already (I'm feeling sad that I'm home alone with nothing to do... pity party at my house...lol) but I still have the rest of the night to do something POSITIVE for ME!! And I have tomorrow... some plans for the evening which include dancing - my favorite activity. And I'm off on Monday... I have plans with my daughter for the day.
I did do my strength training today...upper and lower body....I'm at a starting point....only 1 set of 12 -15 reps with 5 lb weights. I really want to get my tone back. And I did about 30 mins of cardio - my favorite non-exercise... dancing. So I guess things are not so bad. I did eat pretty good today although I'm not sure I met my caloric intake - but I did make my protein - am certain of that. I just don't have much of an appetite some days. Other days I can't get enough food! It will all balance out at weeks end.
So...this is where I'm at ... 10 days later. I'm ready to veg and maybe watch a positive movie to get me motivated (really to replace the PITY Party I'm ready to host at my home...lol) ... and get me ready to make the rest of my weekend productive ... productive about ME... taking care of my wants and needs for a change.... and coming up with solutions to take care of the other crap that has recently been dumped into my life! I'll make it through this... even if I'm not given that chance to come up for "air".... and why??? because I'm now a much healthier person...with goals for a healthier life which is not only about the physical body...it's the mental and spiritual as well. And most importantly (and I'm hoping I don't sound corny) I have the support of my SP friends!! I don't think some of you realize how much your comments mean (yes...I'm not great at responding and thanking you all the time..or even commenting on your blogs)...but sometimes just knowing that you are out there and rooting for me...well it makes a big difference.... it actually helps me through some of my days.
So... I want to make 2012 the year that changed my life forever..in the best way possible. And I'm starting with this month...January... the first month of this wonderful new year... with all my goals written down, on note cards posted to my computer as a daily reminder of where I'm going and what I WILL accomplish. Let the challenges continue....I'm going to rise above them and conquer them. This is MY year.. and I'm going to make it my best year yet!
Keep Sparkin...it works.