A reality check
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
So my last entry was all about "how much weight I'd gained in my stomach" right? Yea...well I decided that perhaps it was time to look at tangible, real, measurable things...rather than 'my feelings' about things.
So right before I went to bed (when I'm most bloated...really.) I measured my waist. 42inches.
For me, that's bigger than I'd like to be around the waist BUT....it's NOT bigger than I've ever been (right in range for where I've been in the last year) it's not smaller, that's for sure. Smallest I've gotten in this last year was 41inches. Biggest I've been in this last year is 43.5inches.
The difference though...is my perseption. What's changed in that time...is my breasts. I used to have DDD breasts that made it so there was alot of my body I couldn't see. My stomach was always compared in ration against my hips and my breasts. How I felt/feel is in direct corilation to the ratio between breasts/waist/hips. Should my feelings rely on this? Likely not. However...very common!
My surgeon warned me that he see's a large percentage of women come in for breast reduction, and then want a tummy tuck after. He warned me about the breast/waist feelings..and he was right. I knew I'd be effected by that especially because my stomach is my "trouble area" in my mind. I want a tight tummy so much. Yep. It's societal. I've bought it hook line and sinker. Knowing that doesn't seem to make it go away though.
So now I have C cup breasts and see SO much more of my stomach that was previously blocked from my view.
In addition to needing to work out more, lessen the sugar and do all the healthy things I *know* I need to be doing...but I also need to add a healthy dose of awareness (regarding how I *feel* vs *reality*) and an extra serving of kindness and understanding.