Is it really 2012 already??
Saturday, January 07, 2012
Well, one week into the new year, and what do I have to show for it? I almost didn't do a January blog. I couldn't think of anything to say that hasn't already been said. I didn't meet my goal, and I can point my finger at the same things that have been issues for months now - inconsistently tracking food & inconsistently exercising. I know what I have to do, so why don't I do it? It's simple. I must not want it ENOUGH. I think there's a little part of me that still wishes for a magic wand solution. I want a magic pill or potion or solution that will do the work for me. I know it doesn't exist. I know there are "magic" methods, but they are either not healthy or temporary fixes, and I don't want either of those. I know the only way to get there in a healthy way is to make the lifestyle changes. As a psychologist, I know that making changes requires mental energy. When a person is under stress, they may use up all their mental resources in just getting through day-to-day. Yes, I've been stressed. But I've certainly been in worse places. So what is getting in my way? Illnesses? Kids? Schedules? Excuses? All of the above. So, it's time to get real. Do I want to meet my goal? Yes. Am I willing to work for it? I think so. Reality is, I don't like cardio. I don't like getting all out of breath and sweaty. I dread the workouts I need to do to meet my goals. I have found a couple cardio workouts that I like, that even though I get hot, sweaty, and out of breath, it doesn't feel like I'm working out. I will try to stick with those.
Also, my husband is helping. On Christmas Eve, he said, "Let's watch a movie." He put on "Shall We Dance?" with Richard Gere, Jennifer Lopez, and Susan Sarandon (very cute romantic-comedy, if you've never seen it). We had seen it before, but both enjoyed it, so I didn't really think anything about it. The next day, he asked me what I was thinking about during the movie. I paused for a moment, and then told him I was thinking about how much I wished I could dance like that. He knows I always wanted to take dance classes when I was a kid, but was never allowed to. While I was in graduate school, I took salsa classes for a couple years, and LOVED it. Over the first few months of taking the classes, I had lost 10 pounds, and never even realized that I was "working out", and I miss that. I told him that was the only time I was committed to "exercise", because it didn't feel like exercise. I looked forward to my Friday night classes, and then going out to a Latin club to practice with some friends from class. I metioned a few other things I had thought about during the movie, and he said he wondered if I might be like Richard Gere's character - feeling kind of bored with my life, but not wanting to say so because I feel like I *should* be content. I said that yes, I think maybe I am, in a way. He said he wonders if, like Richard Gere's character, dance is my passion. I admitted that I'm happy when I dance, although I never feel graceful and can be critical of myself. Then, he said, "I signed us up for weekly Latin dance classes. It'll be Tuesday nights, starting in January. I thought it would be something you would really enjoy, something fun we could do together, and one hour a week that would be just us, no kids." I almost started to cry. This was the PERFECT Christmas gift for me.
Add to that, I joined Spark's January Jumpstart Challenge. Four weeks of daily exercise. I'm hoping that it will help me make exercise a habit. For the entire challenge, there's a Spark video (approximately 10 minutes each) to do every day (cardio, lower body strength, pilates, core, arms/shoulders, etc.). Additionally, you are required to do cardio 5 times per week (minimum of 10 minutes, work up to 30+). Even though I had a nasty cold during week 1, I've managed to complete the challenge goals. I'll start week 2 tomorrow, which is the same as week 1, but then you need to add another Spark video twice during the week. I used to really like Coach Nicole's Cardio Kickboxing video, so I think I'll find that again. Also during week 2, my Latin dance class starts, so that will be another hour of cardio. Oh, and my husband said, just like the movie, for every hour of class you need to put in 5 hours of practice. Phew! That's a lot of cardio for next week!
Additionally, I have some other support. My husband is amazing. I have great Spark Friends. I have a friend from high school who originally told me about SparkPeople who checks up on me here and on Facebook. I also have a friend (you know who you are!) who is on Spark, but predates just about anyone else in my life. We met in Kindergarten. I have memories of us coloring together at school, playing dress-up at my house, and jumping on a trampoline at hers. We drifted apart over the years, and each have our own lives now, but thanks to social media, we're back in contact and have committed to hold each other accountable in meeting our health goals. I think I feel more responsible to meet my goals for her than anyone else, because of our history. I know we can both do this!
Anyway, this is a lot of rambling for me to say that I'm flooding myself with exercise and support in January. I'm hoping this will bump up my progress and help me see some forward movement, which will help my motivation. I'm going to see where I end up at the end of January, and revise my goals from there.
Here's to a strong start to the new year. 2012 is going to be the year I meet my goals!