Saturday, January 07, 2012
So I've come to the realization that I've been my own worst enemy! That somewhere deep down I didn't want to be thin or lose the weight! You say how can this be when you're over 400 pounds....but the truth is that I've become used to it and sort of comfortable being the big girl. But now that I realize this it's time to change! I have almost made it 2 months without eating anything and I mean anything made with milk. If I can make that drastic change.... and dairy was my biggest weakness besides eating out.....I can make the other necessary changes to get healthy and live a long happy life with my hubby and family!! I had told myself that I would start my business when I lost 50 pounds well I went ahead and started it and it was a big accomplishment for me and if I can put all that work into starting a business I can surely do the work necessary to lose weight!! I get scared about so many things pertaining to weight loss like will I be hungry or how uncomfy exercising will be and so on and I actually get panic attacks sometimes thinking too much about what I have to give up or do to lose weight. But it's a mind over matter I'm sure of it!! Like I said if I can give up dairy then I can lose this weight for good!! I just need to stay focused and by focused I mean focus on the positive benefits that I will get for losing the weight! That's what keeps me from touching dairy! I'm glad I realized that I was holding myself back because now I can actively do something about it! It's not going to be easy but I have a plan and will work hard daily to achieve my goal and one day I'll see the finish line!!