changes anyone?

2011 started great in my household. I was optimistic and driven. Was GOING to loose X amount by cutting my calories, (knew exactly what to eat to do that because I had been doing the same thing for the latter half of 2010 with success), was going to get my kids out on the trails with me 5 days a week and get them healthy. And guess what?? I did it. All of it. Then the weather changed.... and with it, my motivation and mood. (When your spirits drop, that is when you need to turn to Spark. Start blogging. We are all in the same boat. We WILL lift you up so you can continue.)

Did I turn to Spark? Not really. In my time of need, I retreated. Made things worse for myself. Then I got sick. Right when I felt better, too, I came down with a new illness.

So.......

It has been 3 weeks since I worked out. I feel a little part of me dying inside. I am SO FRUSTRATED. My husband says that I am full of excuses.

For instance, "the kids don't want to ride their bikes with me because I am too fast for them." OR "Only giving me 30 minutes on the treadmill isn't enough to get my heart rate up, let alone shower. I need AT LEAST 1.5 hrs." OR "Get me a babysitter so I can be alone to exercise. I NEED to recharge my batteries."

His answers are: "Don't go so fast. Let the kids have fun."..... "30 minutes is better than nothing".... "You don't have batteries... thus, you don't need a babysitter."

***Sigh***

Don't know about you.... but I am REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO CHANGE in the New Year!

What are your resolutions?

Mine are:

1) Sign up for races ever few months. This way, I will be forced to train and stick to it. No excuses.

2) Get a job. Even if it means only working to pay for daycare. At least I can escape and get some sanity back. Being a full time Mom of three little kids IS the hardest, most emotionally, mentally, and physically taxing career EVER!

3) Find a way to pay for a maid. A spotless house at least once a month will lift my spirits.

4) Drink more water

5) Eat better

6) Go to sleep when I am tired more often


What do you think? Are you ready for change in the New Year?