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A dream shattered...for now

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Ok so I'm bummed out and slightly down on myself because I want to be an actress and I feel like I am killing my dream everyday I let my weight problems overcome me. I know what I want and its so close there is so many different opportunities that I am letting slip by because I can't control my weight issues. Let me explain a little where all this is coming from. There is a movie shooting that I want to submit for but I can't no scratch that I WON't, I actually refuse to and I have two reasons why. I know that I won't even be considered because of my weight, I know this sucks but I am a realist and that's just the facts. Two I don't want to be the "Fat Actress" I am beautiful, and I love myself at any size but I have always had a vision of myself of my career and I am just not "fat" in my vision. Now by no means does this mean I am unrealistic nor do I believe in the "hollywood" stereotypes of beauty because when I am able to look in the mirror and be completely happy with my body and where it is that is what studios are just gonna have to accept. I am well aware that stick figure is not the size for me! I want a booty! Anyway back to the reason for this post I am just so upset that the reason I am not able to go after my dreams is my weight. I am already gonna have so many obstacles in pursuing this career, many of which I won't be able to do anything about, but weight is something I can control and I'm not doing it. I feel like I'm the one closing the door in my face and I just wanna be better *sigh*
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  • VALKYRIA-
    As someone who has let my weight get in the way of my dreams (and every day relationships) for her entire life, this is heartbreaking for me to read. I always used to want to be in the high-school musicals but never let myself do it because, even though I had the singing voice and acting ability, I just wouldn't let myself be that "fat girl" on stage. I know that this is probably not as dire as your situation, since you want to do it for a career, but I wanted to let you know that I know where you're coming from....

    The best advice I can give is just do things you want to do that you are afraid of because of your weight. You already know what the worst case scenario is (getting rejected or not getting the part), but you have no idea whether they might surprise you by offering you a role even at your current weight. As for the not wanting to be a fat actress part... it is entirely in your power to change how you look, but it definitely is not easy. It can seem really overwhelming and you might be tempted to give up or to not think about it because it is difficult.. but you need to find the courage and the strength from within to be able to say "I am worth it" and to start aligning your every day actions with your goals and aspirations in life.

    I know you can do it and I am behind you 100%
    3268 days ago
  • RUNNER4LIFE08
    Sometimes you just have to jump. Sounds like you need that little push!

    Don't let the way you view yourself get in the way of your dreams. Be the person you want to be!
    3268 days ago
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