Trying not to lose myself.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I'm thinking I'm probably not a good Spark Friend to have as I'm not responsive to comments on my blogs and I'm not giving support to you as you give to me. And maybe I've been self absorbed for too long. But I'm trying to focus on improving my life! I began over a year ago and I made changes...granted, it was easier because I was out of work and had plenty of time to dwell on "me"....but I did put ME first and I took control of the things that I could and left the rest to providence. Things have turned out pretty good... I'm working at a great job that I enjoy going to every day (I know from experience that THAT can make a big difference in your life) but because of my job, and the other things that seem to "rule" my life, I have to find the time for ME! The Holidays have always been rough for me...but this year they seem to be even more so.
I had a great time at our "big" Christmas Party two weekends ago (and BTW.. I looked hot - thanks to my daughter for picking out my outfit...and I was smokin on the dance floor--- after a few martini's...lol) and we had our more "intimate" party today (I'm not used to so many parties as I worked from home for almost 10 years) ... but I did control my eating even though there were TOO many good treats available........and I did 30 minutes of cardio tonight to try to make up for the not so healthy things I ate( I danced... I feel like I haven't dance in so looooong .. by muscles were feeling it).
I JUST have to pull it together, as I know I can and get myself back on track. In another 2 weeks the Holidays will be over...and all the crazy, good things that are a part of it......and I'm planning to get back on track and find my mojo again. I'm going to set goals.. write them down, post them all over my home and my office space, to remind me of where I WANTto be and WHAT I want to accomplish. I'm not letting another year pass and be singing this sorry ass song again! I'm going to do it! I have the strength, I have the resolve, and most importantly.. I have the support of my family, friends and my SP friends. Bear with me my friends.... I'm coming back strong and determined!!!
Keep Sparkin'... it works..