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27 weeks out...

Monday, December 12, 2011

Last week was interesting. Switched my program with a focus on building my upper body. I must admit, I am anxious to start seeing the changes, but to be honest, I am a little nervous that they will not happen. That little voice of doubt has been creeping into my head a lot more lately, which I am not at all thrilled about. I am trying to push that negative little voice OUT of my head entirely…but this will take some effort. It is time to put in more effort.

This holiday season is a real challenge. Those of you who know me, know that I love to eat, and that from time to time, the scale is an issue. I continue to research on diet, supplements, exercise, and everything that I read, says that diet contributes to 80% of a successful journey. I kid you not. This frightens me. I am struggling between eating enough for my muscles to grow, and not eating too much because I do not want my body to convert the excess to fat.

I have tried to stay away from the scale, and when I do, my weight creeps up. So while I hate being a slave to the scale, unfortunately, it is the only way that I can be honest with myself. Because of this, I will use the scale to keep my head focused and in the ‘game’. Time for some tough ‘self-love’ and way less of a dependency on food to deal with the things that happen in life. Yes…I can hear myself chanting right now…”hi, my name is Liz, and I am an emotional eater….”

Alright. So that was the ‘not so awesome’ part. There IS lots of ‘awesome’ that happened last week.

* Increased chest press from 40 lbs to 70 lbs on the chest press machine.

* Learned how to do a ‘hack squat’, and love the addition of dead lifts to my current program.

* Found a new love called the ‘ballerina squat’ 70 lbs. Planning to increase this weight.

* Found out that I can do 39 push-ups. My goal is to do 50 push-ups by December 31.

* Can feel a difference in my shoulders. They feel fatigued. My new program will definitely build them. I am so happy about this..

* Diet? Well, we talked about that. I’ll keep trying my hardest, and doing my best.

* Motivation is still high, and I am learning new things daily!

Looking forward to reporting next week that I have my diet under better control.

Have a happy healthy week! 27 weeks to go…
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  • FOXYBROWN1
    Ahhhhh...DiveGoddess...thanks for the words of encouragement! I DO love this process, but my issue has always been keeping my weight down. I really like to be below 120, and right now I am up at 132...which feels heavy. I do not feel that I look fat, in fact, I have lost 8% body fat in the last 8 weeks, which seems good...but I am admittedly having a hard time wrapping my head around the weight gain...Also, I have seen girls/women training at the gym for figure comps, and some of them already look really lean...so my question is this...can you REALLY not gain muscle unless you are in a calorie surplus? LOL...I know the answer is probably no, you can't, but I wonder how people who are naturally thin grow muscle without putting on fat? Inevitably you will gain fat as well...no? I've also been reading a lot of blogs where some competitors have gained muscle AND fat, and then need to lean out so much more at the end...I would really like to avoid this....is there any way to?

    Ballerina squat is like a sumo squat. I love those...

    I practiced my positive affirmations this morning...they really work! I stood taller, thought about the body part I was working, and told myself that I am beautiful...and I felt better today! Thanks so much for your support and comments. I really appreciate them!!
    3444 days ago
  • DIVEGODDESS
    What's the ballerina squat?
    Yes, It's 80% nutrition. I also believe in nutrient timing, especially for muscle growth. I know it's scary to eat a calorie surplus to make muscles grow, but without eating a surplus they don't grow. I have found that as long as I eat super clean, the weight I gain is lean gain, and not fat. You can even use the Holidays as an advantage and time your big meals around your workouts and this will help with muscle growth.
    You sound like you are doing great!!
    When the negative voice tries to creep back in, just blast it with positive affirmations. "My upper body is growing and my beautiful shoulders are just fabulous. !!" Repeat until you believe it, and it'll happen!! emoticon
    3444 days ago
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