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Emotional Eating

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I went for four months and five days without doing any "emotional eating." I never for a moment thought that I had vanquished emotional eating, but I was starting to believe that feeling good and losing weight was powerful enough to trump the impulse for "emotional eating."

Today was rough. Very rough. It could have been worse, but I realize that the depression with which I have been struggling is a tenacious and powerful one.

It returned--the irrational need to stuff my face with junk food. It returned--the love of salty snacks and the love of sweet ones. I even went out to the store and got some undesirable food. I felt intent and intense and there was also a part of me observing myself. I felt like a drug addicting in the throes of a really bad Jones.

I must learn how to cope better. The fundamental cause of my depression will not go away. It's not trivial.

I recall viscerally and powerfully the magical medical qualities of food. Right now I feel stuffed and unhappy. I hope to get through another day without surrendering to the allure of junk food.
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  • SCREWIE
    I've not been so good myself lately. I suppose it happens. The trick is not to let it be an excuse to re-start all the old habits.
    Got to remember it was just a little hiccup, and back to the healthy stuff :)
    3493 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10088209
    I can relate to what you wrote. I, however have never gone over 4 months without emotional eating! So congratulations on that!
    Yesterday I ate an equivalent to a medium pizza at lunch and supper. I need to address my eating also. However, one thing I am learning is to forgive myself for overeating and to continue to do what is working.... so I got up this morning and walked on the treadmill and just finished a healthy breakfast...and life goes on.
    I will address the emotional eating one step at a time.
    You have already made a lot of progress! So continue and make sure you give yourself the credit you deserve for what you have already done.
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    3498 days ago
  • BECCIE0524
    Don't be guilty.....if we totally eliminate all of the things we love we will eventually binge. We need to incorporate these foods once in awhile. For you to succeed you will need to pick yourself up just one more time than you fall!

    You are not alone! emoticon
    3498 days ago
  • SPARKCHANTAL
    nothing wrong with that, (i pigged out on lasagne and garlic bread last night, even had some wine with it)-- now here's the real danger: getting a guilty conscience from it! THAT'S the real issue.
    just enjoy junk every once in a while, keep your mind clear, keep the proportions in control.
    is there something else you 'won't allow yourself' that you're projecting onto junk food? are you aware of all your loveable quallities? there's probably something else other than food at the bottom of all of it.
    my theory is: when we're born, 'food' = 'love' = 'mother', and the borders between these concepts is porous. if something goes wrong in these beginnings, which is often the case, well-- it gets out of proportion and develops in the wrong direction.
    (nothing so complicated as simplicity....)
    3498 days ago
  • JAZZEJR
    I'll say you're not alone, but it makes us question our sanity and self-control when we go for so long being good, and then fall right back into old habits. I did it yesterday eating a pre-Thanksgiving turkey dinner (great friends I have--giving me a running start on stuffing myself). And I did it after mapping out my strategy for not over-stuffing on Thanksgiving day. I was just ravenous--I couldn't stop eating. Old habits; we're human. I just said, "Oh well, more exercise for me and less eating tomorrow." And I'll be eating off a salad plate on Thanksgiving day! emoticon
    3498 days ago
  • PURPOSEPOWER95
    best wishes. you are not alone. emoticon
    3498 days ago
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