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My Self-Perception-I don't FEEL fat!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Have I gone totally crazy and lost my mind? My reflection in the mirror is like looking at a stranger. If I couldn't see my body, I would swear I was a much smaller person than I am.

It's hard to make sense of it when the scale says 248 because I don't FEEL that big!

I haven't exercised in a couple of weeks because I've been sick and now that I'm better, I'm finding myself in a weird mood lately. (Depression?) It's hard to get motivated to exercise, especially when I'm so tired all the time. I feel strangely sad all the time. This is not a sadness I've experienced. It's almost like a feeling of stress mixed with dread mixed with loneliness mixed with loss.

I've had more defined depression in the past. I know what depression feels like, but if this is depression, it's a kind that's new to me.
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  • CINA-MINI
    I hope that you will talk with your doctor about the feelings you are having. Maybe if you write all of it down and think why you feel a certain way when you do will help. I agree with Asta about getting exercise in. Those 'feel good endorphins' help so much!

    Someone had broken in to my mailbox and stolen a check written to one of my vendors. The bank had stopped it from happening (thank goodness the teller was paying attention!). I was SO angry. But I went to the gym and worked out. I was really "beating that person to a pulp" with every kick, punch and jab. Afterwards, I had a feeling of calm. I wasn't angry anymore. Maybe by working out, you can sort out your feelings too.
    Many hugs!
    3398 days ago
  • SARALEIGHM
    Maybe you should talk to your doctor about how you're feeling. There might be some underlying cause that can be addressed. But don't give up on your goals. If you get back into exercising, it just may help your mood.
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    3398 days ago
  • LINOVER
    I too know what you mean. I know I am extremely overweight by looking in the mirror but I don't feel like I am that big either! Just continue to hang in there!
    3399 days ago
  • BOOKWERME
    Aww...so sorry you have been sick and now are feeling "in the dumps" or whatever it is. One thing that may help IS getting back on the exercise "bandwagon" since exercise stimulates your body and brain. If I remember correctly, it also helps release feel good endorphins...so the exercise will help with the mood.

    I SO understand your comments about not feeling as big as we are! I have been at the weight where you say you are...I knew I was not slim and trim, but I felt good and was active...and just didn't feel fat unless I saw myself in a mirror or on occasion had a run in with a seat belt I couldn't close or a booth that didn't fit me. Those were rare. I hated buying clothes. NOW I am still overweight by at least 25 lbs...and I still don't feel overweight most of the time. Actually, I feel pretty good most of the time unless I sit still too long..then my joints complain with stiffness..but that works out pretty quickly. I don't really even know if I feel better than I did those yrs ago when I weighed so much more. Whatever the case...Don't let it become an issue. Move as much as you can...the more you move the better you will feel...and THAT will lighten your mood. The more you move, the better you will look, too. AND the more you/we move, the better our chances of getting and staying healthier.

    Come on, Lisa! emoticon emoticon
    3399 days ago
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  • NERVOUSWRECKIAM
    Baby steps.
    3399 days ago
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