My Self-Perception-I don't FEEL fat!
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Have I gone totally crazy and lost my mind? My reflection in the mirror is like looking at a stranger. If I couldn't see my body, I would swear I was a much smaller person than I am.
It's hard to make sense of it when the scale says 248 because I don't FEEL that big!
I haven't exercised in a couple of weeks because I've been sick and now that I'm better, I'm finding myself in a weird mood lately. (Depression?) It's hard to get motivated to exercise, especially when I'm so tired all the time. I feel strangely sad all the time. This is not a sadness I've experienced. It's almost like a feeling of stress mixed with dread mixed with loneliness mixed with loss.
I've had more defined depression in the past. I know what depression feels like, but if this is depression, it's a kind that's new to me.