Sunday, November 06, 2011
Had lunch today with a friend from high school who I haven't seen in almost 40 years... I can't believe I've been out of high school that long. He found me on facebook and we've been talking a bit. We were friends in high school and it's been great catching up with him. He's done well for himself, has a beautiful wife, 3 grown children, a few grandchildren, and most importantly.... a positive outlook on life. He helped remind me that no matter what happens in life the way you react is always your choice. Sometimes you have to learn the lesson and then just keep moving forward. He's determined to connect with everyone we went to school with (it was a small class compared to many - about 250 people) and I'm certain he will do it. Truly an inspiring man and I'm fortunate to have him as a friend.
So after I got back from lunch I was feeling so upbeat and determined that I pulled out my weights, did some upper body strength training then some lower body and some ab work. After that I did 30 minutes of cardio. While I was working out I kept thinking about my situation back in April 2010. That was the time that I felt my life had completely fallen apart....and in a way it did. But instead of sitting around feeling glum (I did do a little bit of that) I decided I was going to take control of what I could - my weight and my health. I began to really take it seriously. I religiously tracked my food, exercised both cardio and strength training, and transformed not only my body but my mind as well.... I gained back my confidence which propelled me forward - first to a job at WalMart - was the only place that would hire me at the time and I'm happy I worked there because I learned a lot about myself from the experience and I met a lot of really great, down to earth people who I still go into the store and visit...making them laugh, smile and giving them positive encouragement. From there I got a full time position working with the developmentally disabled - I worked both jobs, 7 days a week, 60 plus hours. But I did it.... and in the process I learned even more about me. From there I got the job I currently have... which is the job I wanted for a few years... I actually took the test to be put on the list almost 2 years before I was called in for an interview. I love the job and the people I work with..but I would like to advance as my skills would be better utilized and I would like to make just a bit more money. But I'm digressing here.
What I decided AGAIN today after my lunch outing was that "I" am still in control of so many things in my life.... my weight, my health and most importantly... my reaction to all the recent events in my life. I feel empowered and in control of ME. I want to make some changes in my life and I'm beginning to take the steps to do that. Some steps may be small but at least I'm moving forward. And I'm going to do it with a smile on my face. No more grumpy, pity faced whoa is me. There are so many people with bigger issues to face than me. It's time I begin writing my gratitude journal again and look at the blessings in my life. And my biggest lesson from my luncheon today .... give back to others and stop being so distant because I'm afraid because of what has happened in my past. I'm starting "here" and making a new ending...one that I want.
A side note..... next year will be my 40th class reunion. I haven't gone to any of them but I'm planning to go to this one. And I'm going to do it in my new, healthy body. I WILL make my goal weight over the next few months. I'm going to this reunion thin, toned and with my head held high!