Just checking in
Sunday, October 23, 2011
had a good weekend. Got some chores done yesterday and today. Went dancing last night. ..fun time! Still feeling pretty stressed about all that is going on but will have to deal. Determined to have a great week.... got to track my food and exercise. Battling a cold yet still trying to eat right.
Realize that life is about choices. Some days I don't make good choices but other days I'm making great choices. My biggest choice is that I'm choosing to be healthy...getting good nutrition, exercising (when I'm not too tired) and, in general, being mindful of the food choices I make- good or bad. I want to be thin because being thinner gives me more energy.....yes I feel tired these days.. but it's not related to the foods i eat.
When I was heavier i was" always" tired...am thinking it was the carb intake and lack of protein plus the extra weight! Add to that the stress i was living with on a daily basis. But now.. I still have the stress but I have the tools to track my food intake and exercise. If I am mindful of what I'm eating, how I'm exercising then I can still stay committed to a healthy life choice. I'm not losing this battle. I'm come too far to slip back into my "comfort" zone.
I feel pretty good. ... My weight is under control . I KNOW I can control t! Just want to lose more... and I WILL!!! I do somewhat feel healthy at the weight i am now ... but I want to be just a bit thinner. And NO... I'm not obsessed with being the thinnest thin I can achieve. I wanna have some meat on my bones...... I just want to be thinner and if that weight doesn't feel comfortable with me I certainly know how to put weight on...lol
Anyway, at the minimum, I want to stay the weight I am....and the MAX... I NEED to drop about 20 more! well.... at least 10 more...
A side note.... we always want to be thinner...consumerism dictates this to us.. I've never wanted to "be: a model..... I don't want of be anorexic and look like a human skeleton.... but I do know that an extra ten pounds will make a big difference to my body shape (If I can only build up my butt - my daughter always tells me I have no ass... and I don't.....lolol But since i'm over 50 , and my body is not cooperating ( saggin and baggin ...
An falling asleep as I write this.... damn cold!!
Bottom, line,,,,,,Life is about choices.... good and Bad Ones... W can chekc ouselves outmake choices!! Just Di Ut!!!!! (3