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Thursday, October 20, 2011

It's been a long time since I wrote anything, almost a year and a half. In that time, I've had a lot of ups and downs, but mostly ups. Yesterday was a giant downer that I'm struggling to come to terms with. My manfriend informed me that our relationship, whatever it was, just wasn't going to work out. We're finished. He called to chat, very bright and chipper to start out, but boy what a switch he pulled on me. I didn't get much sleep, my eyes are so puffy I hesitate to go anywhere today, and I couldn't eat dinner last night for fear of making myself ill. Not that missing a meal was necessarily a bad thing.

So I'm picking myself up this morning. My family has me booked tonight, tomorrow, and Saturday, to make up for the weekend I was planning to be spending away with my MF. Being out in public will force me to suck it up and not wallow in my misery. I'm just feeling sorry for myself, I know.

Otherwise, things have been going much better. I have my UC pretty much under control and can eat anything but 100% whole wheat products. I'm getting my weight down to where I want it (my current state of not feeling like eating is a bonus here) and trying to keep it there. Over the past several weeks, I've gotten back into daily exercise, at least 15-45 minutes a day.

On the business front, things have improved significantly over the course of the summer. Order volume has about doubled. Now to keep the momentum going. There's another advantage of not having the distraction of a MF. I can throw myself into my partner and my goal of global domination of the needlework market. Hahaha.

So there you go. Time heals all wounds, no matter how deep.
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    Well I am very glad that you wrote a blog again (Finally!) emoticon but I am also sorry about your MF.

    I agree with MO-WALK, people come into our lives for a reason, and they leave for a reason, too. You are a very pretty, smart, motivated woman who is her own boss and has a wonderful family. You will most likely find someone else very soon! I know that you will need time alone for awhile,and I don't know if you will continue to talk to your MF during this time.
    Here's a weird story that somehow fits your situation a little.
    In April, my cat ran away. It was very hard on me because I didn't know what happened to him. Every night I cried. I asked God why he did this to me and I didn't understand why this happened.
    While I was looking for my cat at the SPCA, I saw a little puppy all alone in a big cage. She had been dumped on the street downtown. She waddled right up to me and licked my hand. Even in my depression of missing my cat I smiled.
    I adopted Clover and 6 months later I have a sense of clarity. It was a shame that my cat left me, but without that happening I would not have found Clover. You never know what's around the corner. Keep your head up Sara!
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    3567 days ago
    I am so sorry to read of the end of your relationship with your friend. But remember that "People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime." Reflect on it and move on. Don't let it get you down!

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    3572 days ago
    I'm sorry :( Breakups hurt so badly. I am sorry you are hurting.

    3572 days ago
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