Tuesday, October 18, 2011
"Get Up and Get Moving"
Truer words were never better said. Today is my 7tn month anniversary of Spark living and I have been stuck in a plateau for months. I walk and do weight bearing exercise but nothing, zero, zilch nada!
Went to doctor and apparently gained 5 lbs. so I've chosen to not use scale for the rest of the year and may end up banning it forever! I hate the thing with a passion.
I know the discomfort I feel is all in my head. Many of you have written about how our brain is stuck on numbers. I know the scale is not the only way to measure success but my brain won't let go of the numbers it gleefully throws at my face. My mindset is having difficulty accepting that my clothes do fit better and in a smaller size. So I have to change my perspective and be more pragmatic in my thinking I'm doing it for my mental health which is just as important as my physical health.
I didn't think I had any mental health problems regarding my image. I have been aware of my weight gain and lack of exercise. It took years of inactivity and poor eating habits to get to where I needed to do something about it. I have gone from 157 to 120 and now 123 pounds on a five foot frame; and this all may seem trivial to some of you. The truth is my health requires that I get moving without having to train for a marathon.
I've given myself the challenge to train for a mental health marathon. It will be a while before I reach the finish line since I have a lifetime of poor thinking, listening and accepting damaging messages from family, friends, society and media. Reality doesn't get rearranged or retouched. No significant amount of camouflage will erase what is hiding.
The scale has to go. I've become too dependent on it and has too much of an impact on my perception of self. Still, banning the scale is not enough. So what's a girl to do? She goes shopping for some feel good essentials.
I bought myself some new sexy undies; Yes, the sexy kind! They are lacy, silky, provocative and in a smaller size but nothing expensive. Also, came home with smaller size pj bottoms, lounging pants, comfy t-shirts and lacy under shirts since can't have bras. What am I to do with only one breast? Supportive under shirts do the job. I'm also going to search and subscribe to blogs that tough on fitness mental health issues.
I'm open to ideas or recommendations you have to help me with mental health marathon training. lol