This weekend on Friday - Saturday I went to a workshop with Authentic Movement in Budapest (Hungary). I had no clue what it will be about, just knew it will have some Gestalt, and something to do with the body. And these days I like to do things around my body, to learn, to improve.
And it was so good. Finally, I could let go of my "thinking about things", and just give the permission for my body to talk.
I think, slowly I'm getting used to this new body. Smaller, thinner, more energetic, younger. Taking up less space in a room when I go indoors.
I feel more self confidence when interacting people. The thing is, I was not even aware about the lack of confidence, just I experience now, there is more of it. I'm more natural, I'm more in the present.
Sometimes, I get the feedback "But please, don't loose more weight!", usually from people whom I know for long. I don't like this comment, its holding me back. I know it's good will, but in the end, it's so difficult unrealistic to loose more then necessary. If they could imagine all the energy we put into making happen all the portion control, healthy food, exercise. So, I was quite resistant to this type of comment.
And now, one of us told that accepting the new body and the changes, is not only a challenge for us, but for the people around us. And sometimes they tell her, "Please, don't loose more weight!". And it sounds like, "please don't change more, it's already difficult to adapt".
Hm, that is a new perspective for me.
It's about change, not just for me, but for the people around me.
I think, I'll be more gentle with the people around me.
One of you wrote in the blog about the book "Who moved my cheese?", and the topic of change.
The biggest discovery about myself on this Authentic Movement session, is that my soul is changing, as my body changes. Somehow, my personality changes along the way. But I can't really put my finger onto it, but it's changing. I have more energy, different things interest me, I spend my time on new things, I listen to new style of music, I eat 180 degress different, I get connected to new types of people.
On, Sunday, we went to the Adidas Outlet in Budapest. As a reward, I bought some new performance clothes for winter exercise. I felt so good. Spending money for nice exercise clothes. And you know what, the main issue was to find clothes with slim fit!
Because, I have to go for the SLIM FIT now!
I'm so happy for the new clothes, I'll post some pictures of them later this week!
This is where I went to high school. Mikszath ter 1. I had the training nearby. It felt good to walk on those streets again. When people didn't look, I caressed the walls softly.
One of the trainers, Sabine: www.sabfab.com/englisch.
Authentic Movement: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Au