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Friday, October 14, 2011

I was doing so well....

Then for no reason at all, I had an ice cream binge. I was at the pharmacy picking up meds for my mom and picked up some ice cream.

I didn't even want it. I guess I got it out of habit?

I went home and drank the entire pint. All 1000 calories of it. And it didn't even taste good. It had melted by the time I got home. I didn't even sit down. I took off my shoes and I drank it standing in the middle of my bedroom floor. I didn't even turn on the tv. I was just standing there.

I tossed and turned all night. And my face feels swollen. I've been up since 3:30 am cause I couldn't take the uncomfortable feeling anymore.

I just have one question for myself...

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  • no profile photo CD8730394
    We have a logical side and an emotional side with the emotions being a lot stronger than logic. Emotions are instantaneous, while logic muses over the past or thinks about the future.

    If you feel a craving for a certain food then you are physically reaching for the food so your emotions are at play and your logic is turned off. Logically you would know that binging is bad so you would stop.

    My advice is try doing what I have written below for a week, even if you think it's stupid. You have nothing to lose, so just try.

    Below are some questions. Write them down and carry that piece of paper with you in your pocket at all times. Whenever you are about to binge, pull it out and reread the questions, and put some thought into the answers. This will make you pause and turn on your logic.

    - Am I about to eat because I’m physically hungry? If not then what am I trying to feed?

    - How will I feel after binging on this food? Remember all the guilt I felt after binging last time? Remember all the pain of the weight gain that's a result of my binging? Remember how this is stopping me from living a NORMAL life, and getting in the way of my other goals, dreams and aspirations?

    - What will my life be like if I keep binging? What will my life be like 1 year from now? What will it be like 5 years from now? What will my body size be? What about the quality of my future?

    - How will I feel If I don’t binge? If I say NO? Are there any consequences to saying NO?

    - What will my life be like if I keep saying NO? What will my life be like 1 year from now? What will it be like 5 years from now? What will my body size be? What about the quality of my future?

    Write down these questions NOW. It's a waste of my time and yours if you read this advice without taking action. I hope I have helped you beat your WHY?
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    3048 days ago
  • HAWKTHREE
    I can relate to the pint of ice cream. I've tried not eating the entire pint -- no good. Now I try by buying the outrageously expensive 4 bite containers. I just keep trying.
    3048 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    When I have done things like this, and I certainly have, sometimes I try to pull the lesson out of the mistake before I move on. I tend to see a real connection between a period of intense stress (even a short bout of it, like my 7 y.o. tantruming, or an argument with my husband) and a mindless dive into food hours later. It is as if it flips a switch in my head or something. I have found that consistently eating protein and exercising are my best insurance policies against a binge. Also, I simply cannot let myself get too hungry. Low blood sugar has done me in many times. Don't know if this is at all helpful, but I thought I would share it and you can do what you want with the information. I am thinking of you. Drink lots of water and move forward Sparkly friend.
    3048 days ago
  • CAROLZ1967
    I really think you are punishing yourself, especially when I read things like "I didn't even want it", "it didn't taste good", etc. Even if it wasn't done on a conscious level (as punishment), I really feel it centers around that. You KNOW it will hurt your goals, make you sad, make you feel bad about yourself, and you did it anyway. You may also have been feeling (beforehand): you "don't deserve to lose weight or be healthy or be happy" & so you (maybe subconsciously!) did this to sabotage yourself. It "proves" to you that those evil voices in your head (negative self-talk) are "right" and the cycle can then continue. You will have to give it a lot of thought & be honest w/yourself. If you agree w/me, then you'll have to start by working on that inner voice & your sense of self-worth, strengths, confidence, etc. We can discuss more if you're interested but I for to get in the shower! I'm here for you!
    3049 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9915970
    It is hard to break habits! I totally agree. Hang in there! Don't let it define you. You owe that to yourself! Rise above it! You can do it!
    3049 days ago
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