Day 10 Examine phase 1 victories
Saturday, October 01, 2011
I have a few ideas about this. I don't think I would have dared to embark on the R.E.V.O.L.U.T.I.O.N. 100 day challenge in the past when I was working. I used to allow my job to consume all of my time and then use the work as an excuse for not taking care of myself physically or emotionally. In the past ten days I've been eating a strictly vegetarian diet (I'm still calling myself a flexitarian) and I've had exercise every day.
But I would have to say that for me the biggest and the most rewarding fruits of the challenge were the insights I forced myself into on days 2 and 3:
List reasons you have given up before and List reasons you will not give up this time.
I don't think I had ever wrestled with those issues before and they took me to a fairly dark yet realistic assessment of myself. To sum it up neatly, fat really helps somebody with an anxiety/panic/social disorder because it marginalizes you in much of society. And it's a ready-made excuse: "He / she/ it/ them dont' like me because I'm fat!" "I can't get a promotion because I am fat".
My biggest victory is discovering that I'd rather strive to live a bit longer than to die in a protective cloak of fat!
In other news: I'm doing well in other challenges. I am a Periwinkle. I am a Cat. I am an October Determination Person. I am making progress on my virtual walk from Moscow to Lucca, Italy. I am getting my teeth taken care of (I had previously decided that there's no point in going to the dentist because I'm going to die anyhow). I have an appointment with the ophthamologist. Ditto the endocrinologist. I'm taking care of myself. I can make the elliptical machine move!
Spark People is the onliest thing that has helped me for such a long period (I know--it's less than 3 months but I've never stuck with anything for as long as three weeks before).
The ten phases of the 100 day challenge are: