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Friday, September 30, 2011

I wasn't going to weigh myself this morning. I was afraid it would send me in the wrong direction...hopelessness, frustration, depression. Not at all what I need when I am trying to get back on track! But, I wanted an accurate reading of how 'bad' it got, so I weighed.

First of all, I've been pretty much at goal weight since early this year. Some days, I still want to lose more weight, but I'm a good size 8 (some 6s) and I don't really want to lose any more of my 'figure'/'curves' at this point. Maybe someday I will. Anyway, my current goal has been to stay between 130-133.

On August 19th, I once again hit my low of 130. But, earlier this week, I saw 134. Ouch! I was out of my target area! And, I just kept eating & eating...but also doing lots of exercising!

As I stepped on the scale I expected to see 136. I felt I DESERVED 136! But, you know what??? It showed 133!!! Wow! I even have a 'back up' scaled and hopped on it. It always shows about a pound heavier...well, it showed 134. So, my scale wasn't lying to me after all! I am already back in my goal range!!! (Though at the top of it which leaves no wiggle room!)

That made me feel TERRIFIC!!! And, I've felt like I was 'bigger' this week...but the two times I was feeling 'big' and 'fat' I had on clothes that I just don't usually wear. Clothes that are unflattering and need to be PITCHED!!!

Right now, I have on a medium t-shirt (from parasailing!) and small shorts. I feel 'thin' & 'cute!' I have eaten terrifically all day! (so far, you know?) And, I ran 5 miles...FAST... on the HILLS...in practice for next weekend's half marathon.

I'm feeling a lot better, though I know I'll still struggle with my in-laws coming this evening for the weekend. I know they're bringing homemade pies & we usually eat pretty poorly! But, do you know what I realized this morning...everything I put into my mouth is MY CHOICE!!! Even after I pick something up...or buy it....or cut a piece of something...I can choose NOT TO EAT IT!!! What a revelation!

As far as the pie, I love it! My husband's great aunt is 92 years old...and makes wonderful pies...with Crisco in the crust! (Oh, my!) But, I will eat some. I've decided to cut myself small slices and not to eat the bottom crust. That'll help, right?!?

I'm feeling great about how my mind is back in the game today. I'm hoping I can stick with it. I sure plan to!

I hope you all have a great weekend whatever you're doing. If you're racing, have a wonderful time and trust your training! And, thank you for all of the support on my posts yesterday! (I just thought one of them had been lost in e-space, but it somehow is posted now, too.) I couldn't do this without you! emoticon
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  • LIV2RIDE
    Sounds like you've done a great job at getting your head turned around. Good for you! Enjoy the pie and the time with your family. You will get out and hit the pavement and work it off. No problem!
    3591 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2035636
    Great job - I wish I could get to my goal and stay within +/- 3 pounds. You are doing awesome. Small slices and 3 bites.
    3591 days ago
  • SUZWARNR
    I battle with myself and the scale all the time. If I'm not being good, then I don't want to step on it. But then later I do because I need to hold myself accountable and stay in check. You are not alone. Everyone struggles. Just get back on the right track and move forward.
    3592 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7673407
    Oh I had that same argument with my scale. Thank goodness I was down. Laughed out loud when I read that part. I LOVE PIE!! So yes no bottom crust and a sliver works well. Then water, water, water. Give something up at dinner for it maybe! Saw your chocolates post. You are in the land of temptation and handling it well!! Love your blogs!
    3593 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/1/2011 6:03:19 PM
  • BILL60
    You are doing just super. Keep it up.
    3593 days ago
  • STAROFD00M
    Love to hear you're at a great place with your weight maintenance :)
    3594 days ago
  • ROBYN168
    It's great to have a Pie Plan.....if you decided not to eat it - you would end up in the kitchen in the middle of the night eating a half of a pie....oh - wait - that's me....sorry...but you know what I mean.....not having any is not always the best answer!


    Well Done!
    3594 days ago
  • CH0718
    Sounds like you have a great balance going!
    3594 days ago
  • GIANTPANDA
    emoticon emoticon It sounds like you have found the perfect balance. And thank you for the reminder about us choosing what we put in our mouths. I had almond slices next to my computer and was eating too many as I worked on a project I suddenly realized I could put those away. Some day I want to be at goal weight and have the balance that you have. And sometimes you've got to have the pie. My pie time is when I visit my parents and my mother serves her famous blueberry pie. I have to have a small slice. Mmm.
    3594 days ago
  • 4EVERADONEGIRL
    I love when it's not as bad as we thought it was. You must be doing something right!!! Good job!
    3594 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1425027
    Congratulations!!!! Sounds like you have found a good balance!
    3594 days ago
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