Saturday, September 24, 2011
I have too many of them lately. I call them "reasons" but they are really excuses. I know what I need to do so move forward...not only with my weight loss but with my healthy lifestyle...which includes a healthy mind and spirit as well.
I think I"ve been more focused on the weight loss over the last year. It was an escape from the reality which is my life. Why does life have to be so challenging? But... I'm going to move forward, as best I can. I've been lax with my exercise.... my eating is not too bad but I find I can easily slip back to my "comfort" food choice if I'm not mindful.
Tonight I'm going to take some time, for ME, to make a list of my reasons (excuses) for not taking care of myself. Then I'm going to formulate a plan to move forward. I already began that process the last few days...but I think I need to put it down on paper so I can "see" it.
I had a very productive day today. Got rid of some trash at the dump, had a FEMA investigator come by and inspect my property damage from hurricane Irene ( I hope they can help me as I'm so strapped financially) and I made some home repairs (myself...my "chesticles are showing..lol) and trimmed the so overgrown hedges. It's not easy being a homeowner and having so many responsibilities. But I'm grateful I have a home and I'm prepared to do what I must to remain here.
I know I should be tracking my food bu more importantly I need to track my exercise. If I remained at my current weight right now that wouldn't be a bad thing as I'm "comfortable". But I feel I should be more active than I have been. My body needs to move more. I'm just so tired these days. I know if I moved more I would sleep better. So I just have to DO IT!
When I began my SP journey (when I really became serious) I was not employed and had lot's of time to focus on what I needed to do. And then I went from being unemployed to working 2 jobs, 7 days a week, 60 plus hours... and I still found time to eat right and exercise. And now... I have no excuse. I work a normal work week. I'm just not focused now. ..... and I need to change that. I have a goal. I need to evaluate what is preventing me from reaching it. Yes, I know it's ME but why? I have no valid excuse. I just got lazy. It's easier not to do and make "excuses" than to just DO IT!
I want to be healthy more than anything. The weight loss is just an added bonus. I don't want to feel tired. I want to live an active life.... there are so many things on my "bucket" list that I WILL accomplish. My body is going in the right direction but I need my mind and spirit to follow... and exercising every day gives me that energy.
So, after all my rambling.... I'm going to "dance" (my favorite activity/\.exercise) make myself a "healthy" dinner.... and then relax and make my "plan" to eliminate my "reasons/excuses" list.
Keep Sparkin'... it works.