I am on four time-specific challenge teams. Yes, I'm a cat! And I'm a periwinkle! I am determined! And I'm a revolutionary!
Day 3 List reasons you will not give up this time: A tricky assignment because I lack self-confidence.
Doctors have told me for years to lose weight. That's not the same as being told that I have Congestive Heart Failure, a very enlarged heart, and the end of the line is rushing towards me
I never had a tool like Spark People before: its organization; its support; and its trackers really help
An iPod crammed with exercise music (ranging from operatic overtures, Michael Jackson, rousing Broadway overtures, cranky crunky new stuff, Adele, Disco favorites, plenty of Abba and a few good Audible books on the iPod makes it easy to exercise with ENTERTAINMENT!
If I give up, I pretty much go directly to Death and I do not get to collect my $200.00 I am old, my readers. I've outlived many friends and family members. I am older than they were when they died. I am past my natural expiration date already. I don't want to suffer the indignity of eating myself to death.
I've done a lot more reading and research then I ever have before. Books such as "The Omnivore's Dilemma" and news articles on Monsanto have persuaded me that it's dangerous to participate too much in the big AgraPharmaCornCruelty Oligarchy. I think that I really "get it".
I think I can succeed this time because I've done a lot of emotional work in distancing myself from some of the fears that used to plague me and make me eat. I'm not giving power to eye-rolling strangers. That means I am not in many situations where I might need to use food as a "crutch"
I don't want my children and my husband to be terrified about my demise. I don't want them to end up telling my (future) grandchildren in 25 years or so that their grandmother ate herself to death.
If I continue to eat prudently, I can take much less insulin. If I shoot myself up with less insulin, it improves my chances to lose weight (people who must inject insulin find that they typically gain weight and cannot lose it easily--that's how the hormone works (fun little factoid).
That's it for the moment.