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R.E.V.O.L.U.T.I.O.N. - 100 Day Challenge Day 2

Friday, September 23, 2011

Day 2 List reasons you have given up before

I think that the question pertains to what has made me give up on diets before:

emoticon I never really think I'm worth it
emoticon I have tended to think of food as "consolation" as "comfort" as "therapy" (all those jaunty times I've called Ben and Jerry's ice cream my 'therapist'
emoticon I have a crazy mentality that I "deserve" food when I have something bad happen to me
emoticon food is ingrained into my psyche as treat, consoler, healer
emoticon When I am pressured with too much work I've always found it easy to eat poorly--fast food, frozen dinners, take-out
emoticon I am socially awkward and tend to have my anxiety make me eat too much in social situations even when I think that people are judging me
emoticon It makes me feel defiant and as if I am standing up for myself (this is really a trick because I intellectually know it's hurting myself). My parents used to keep cookies and candies and ice cream and soda for themselves and we were not allowed to touch it because there were six children. Parents calmly explained that they deserved "treats" because they had "earned" it. We could "earn" treats only on very special occasions. So it's ingrained in my psyche that food is emotional and physical capital; that access to food is a privilege
emoticon I am still not rational enough to always physically and emotionally understand that food can be toxic and fatal in the long-term.
emoticon I've never learned to judge food coolly and dispassionately
emoticon Until I found Spark People all of my diets were ridiculously limited and not at all balanced. Some were downright dangerous! Some have even been banned (anyone else remember liquid protein?)
emoticon I will not commit suicide but I have often wondered if I am letting food kill me by proxy. Do I have some sort of death wish that does not permit me to stick with a decent food program?

These are the reasons that come to mind first.
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  • LE7_1234
    Ah, I recognize a lot of things on this list!!! I think most of us do--you don't end up on SparkPeople if you have a "healthy relationship with food". (Funny expression, that. I'd really prefer to have healthy relationships with people, and leave food as fuel. Fuel that can be enjoyable--but still, is not something that takes up the place --in time, energy, thoughts-- of another person.)

    One thing that was hard for me to learn was how to find different rewards for myself. I mean, it's counterproductive to reward myself for sticking to my plan by allowing myself ice cream, right?? So that's a good place to start--thinking of what other rewards you can "earn". (I like the way Courtney set up milestones for her rewards.)

    You know, the last item on your list hit me really hard. For two reasons--first, because that's *exactly* what I felt like, back before I lost weight. Second--because it's been so long since I felt that way, I totally forgot.

    Wishing the same for you!

    (Lisa, 100-day Challenge Finisher and general cheerleader! LOL!)

    3555 days ago
    You should give yourself a lot of credit for being so honest about your reasons for giving up before. It's not easy to do, and you were brutally honest. Good for you!

    We all use food in emotional ways - as treats, as consolation, as something to do - so know that you're not alone there. One thing I'm doing that I think is going to help a lot is creating a very specific reward system for each goal I reach. And I am rewarding myself for *everything!* :)

    Each 5 pounds lost
    Each 10 pounds lost
    Monthly goals (amount I want to lose divided by number of months until my target date = number of pounds per month)
    BMI changes
    10% of body weight lost
    1/2 way to goal
    Staying within my calorie range for seven days straight
    Completing a 5K (SP has virtual races if you're interested in something with no pressure)
    And of course, a big fat reward for reaching my full goal!

    I fully intend to add to this list as I go along and will continue to reward myself for every little milestone.

    Maybe something like this would work for you?

    Feel free to email me or comment on my page directly if you want reward ideas or any additional help. I'm not very far ahead of you (I'm on Day 19), but am happy to help if I can. :)
    3555 days ago
    It's good that you can see all those reasons. It's how you start not to fall back into them!
    3555 days ago
    You have really looking inside yourself and are being honest about your relationship with food. Your last reason really hit home for me. Now that you know the reasons, how do you deal with them?

    3555 days ago
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