1:30 am .. Why am I still up?
Thursday, September 22, 2011
So yea. I took a nap, then did some yoga. Now I'm pretty much awake. I got the mini-munchies, but thankfully opted for some edamame. Yay for smart choices.
I want to run. I like to run. Something about the wind through my hair, and the mental image of running away from this large blubbery prison and just being the person who I really am. I'm outgoing, spontaneous, and love to hug people, but so burdened by my own self-conscious necrotic thoughts that I don't act like the person I am.
I just can't do it for long without pain and feeling like someone punched me in the stomach. The first week of Couch to 5k is still too hard. I can't make it to the minute. I get winded at the 45 second mark of just jogging.
But I want this! I have to push myself farther than I feel comfortable if I am ever going to achieve this. I was jogging this afternoon when I felt my ankle pop and I started to get a bit of pain when I lifted my foot. I'm taking tomorrow off, but Friday I'm going to try to push that 1 minute mark. No dogs to jerk my arm off when they need to stop for an emergency smell. Just me, the road, and the wind through my hair.