Help! I'm Stuck!!!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Isn’t it crazy how we get stuck? That is what has happened to me the last few days. I have been stuck. It was like I seen all this great progress with others and couldn’t get beyond it. I didn’t beat myself up this time but everything got blurry, my eating and my exercising. It was like I spaced out what I was supposed to do. I knew what I was supposed to do but somehow it didn’t happen the way I thought it should have. It wasn’t horrible. It was just that I knew I could do better and because I thought I was already doing better I didn’t know what else to do.
I did try a new recipe and it was healthy and delicious. I am thinking about going back to having no breakfast again because I would like a result of some sort, maybe no breads. I don’t know if there is a right answer but I am frustrated seeing all this progress that others are making and me zilch, nothing. So, I’m feeling a bit sorry for myself. I want what I want when I want it, DANG IT!!!
I tell myself it is because of the peri-menopause or it could be because I have a low thyroid and I need to go back to the doctor and get a higher dose of meds (as I role my eyes). Is this true or is this an excuse. I don’t think it is but I see all the people around me who are making these wonderful achievements and think so what is wrong with me. I am doing the things these other ladies are doing and look how great they are doing. I know I shouldn’t compare my insides with others outsides, but hey, I’m human.
This is the point where I get the “why bother” attitude. I don’t want to accept this, but I am really tired of weight being on my mind 24/7 and nothing is changing even when I make the changes. It will be Oct 1 which I figured I would have lost 5 lbs by now and nothing worth going WOOHOO! over has happened.
I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired and still no results. What a prison I live in, trapped in my own body. I would usually say, “if this is the worst thing that happens to me then I am doing okay” I don’t want to be okay anymore and what the heck, I’m still here in the same place I was eight weeks ago.
Goal for the day:
Work on better attitude.
Practice my jump rope thru out day.
Get out of my head and back into the game!