Monday, September 12, 2011
Today has been just about me and trying to clean my house so I feel less overwhelmed. I woke up early today, just to go downstairs and cry. I've been so emotional the last couple of days, with my friend's death, guilt about not being able to afford the 2 hour drive to his services, my car being on the fritz, my fiance losing hours at work, and me being laid off. I hate worrying about money. I've lived in my car before, and even though I have options other than that now, when money trouble hits, I go into panic mode.
To top it off, my DF's evil cat has opened a sore on her neck with her claws (even though we just trimmed them). I had him put an e-collar on her, but that lasted all of 5 minutes as she was able to wiggle it off. I fashioned a turtle neck if you will out of one of his holier socks. She seems content with it, and hopefully that will keep her from messing with that wound without limiting her mobility. I can't touch her with the exception of scruffing her as she will tear me to bits. I'm even hesitant about that. I won't do it without a gardening glove on because I'm afraid of her. She resents me from taking her master; I resent her for being an evil monster kitty. We can't even take her to the vet. The vet's charts have her marked as super aggressive and they refuse to treat her without her being sedated. She's 15 years old, and cats are sensitive to sedatives as it is, so she just has to go without.
Otherwise, I'm proud of me. I did all our shopping, and stocked a week and a half for $48. Thank goodness for falafels. 5 dollars worth of ingredients feeds us both for 3 meals. I think we're headed towards more meatless meals, since that seems to be the cheapest (and cleanest) way to prepare food. Vegetarian out of laziness? Hmm That could work.