Meg Ryan and me
Saturday, September 03, 2011
Saw a film on teve yesterday - "The women" and got startled by Meg Ryans look. I suddenly thought "what´s up with her lips?" and wondered if she had done a lip surgery getting "duck lips..." In the end scene - where Debra Messing is having a baby and all the women supports her - I suddenly saw Meg Ryan looking like all those "hollywood Wives" I see in trailers - weird cheek bones, duck lips, not a wrinkle anywhere..." so I had to google "Meg Ryans + plastic surgery" afterwards, and found I was right - she has done a lot of "correction" to herself.
I do have a problem with my aging face, for the first time in my life. I am 58 and I do think I look worse than some years ago - I can beat myself up because I did not like my appearance before, when it was more pleasant and soft. Nowadays I look fierce, which I kind of like, but at the same time I miss being more pretty...
I don´t have that much wrinkles, a blessing for the fat lady - that is why I realize that even if I did some facelifts, "duck operation"(my upper lip is disappearing) and cheek bone-something - I would still have an old skin and experienced eyes.
In a weird perspective it is a blessing that I never considered myself as pretty or beautiful - looks was not my thing, brain and wittiness was - and is. If I was Meg Ryan I would probably value my looks to the extent that I would take precautions to keep it. But the result is tragic... and it angers me as I compare it to two good-lookers as Paul Newman and Robert Redford who has kept every wrinkle and still gets the good parts... as does the british ladies Maggie Smith and Judi Dench. It´s not fair how Hollywood gives mixed messages to female actors!
I could discuss that a lot but it was not the purpose of this blog. The purpose was that I was reminded on that my work is to accept and love myself whether I look old, young, wrinkled or botoxed... A beautiful soul is what I am going for!