There and back again.
Thursday, September 01, 2011
I got on the scale this morning. I have lost a large kindergartener. I am 2 pounds more than my son weights. I am a pound less than I was on the day he was born. Some of his early life was difficult and I gained back all the weight I had lost by eating healthy pregnant.
So here I am 5 years later back were I was. It only gets better from here. But, I was looking at him yesterday and realizing how far I have come. The journey has been slow and full of ups and downs but, hey it has been in the right direction and it will go on this time.
I am learning that the foods that I think I want are frequently not satisfying. I am learning to make foods that I like that are healthy for me. I am learning to eat until I am comfortable. I am learning to eat when I am hungry. I am learning to eat sometimes just because it is time and I feel better when I eat regularly.
I am learning to try new ways of doing things. The pizza salad was wonderful. The family at pizza with a crust ect. That they made. I ate a wonderful salad that I made with some of the ingredients. I did have a small piece of cooked homemade pizza that day. It was yummy but the salad surprisingly was better.
I can make lots of good stuff if I open my mind to the possibilities.
Now it is time to remember that I do not want to walk around every day with the equivalent of that kid on my back all the time. He is fun to play with but, to carry his weight in fat. Not fun.
Really there is lots of joy in this journey. There are lots of things to see and learn. It is about so much more than counting calories or not eating certain foods.
So join me in burning some calories doing the happy dance. There are still struggles in life. But, there is plenty to be happy about.