One of the interesting things about meeting my weight loss goal (over a year ago) is learning how to maintain. How to eat to not lose weight, but not slip back into old habits. It was easier for me to cut out "bad" foods altogether than to have a "small" piece since it is too easy for me to have another "small" piece. After all, I'm at goal, right?
I blogged about a month ago about how I had backslid and gained some of the weight back (about 8 pounds over my maintenance range). Not enough to freak out, but enough to make me want to watch and get back on track. Well, I did great for about a week. I hit the gym everyday, started 30DS, stayed within my calorie range and then, I got the stomach flu and was knocked out for a few days. After a few days down, I was behind on work and house stuff, so I found myself "too busy" to get back to my program. Here I am at the end of the month, a few pounds down, but not much to be excited about. I am more upset with my attempt than the actual results.
I don't need to lose much weight to get back to my goal range and I don't want to weigh less than that, but I do want to continue to reshape my body. I do not like my midsection at all and really need to continue losing fat so I can slim down my whole stomach section.
I used to run. I ran my HM last fall and ran 2 this past spring. Then I had a stress fracture and couldn't run for 6 weeks. I missed it. But when I was finally cleared to run again, it wasn't in my routine anymore. It was summer (June) and too hot to run during the day. I had replaced my weekend morning runs with having breakfast in our pajamas with my kids. While I didn't pretend I was still running, people still talked to me about running. Their last race, my next race, training programs. I could still keep up in the conversation, but felt like a fraud since I hadn't run in months. We'd be driving down the road and we would see a woman (every woman) running. My kids, without fail, point her out and say, "she's running, just like mommy!" It is all I can do is smile and say yes, all the while feeling like a fraud since I've only run three times since June.
But, I am done feeling like that. I want to be the healthy mom/role model for my kids. I want to be the mom they can look up to and want to stretch with after my runs and run with me when they get older. And I don't want to feel like a fraud anymore.
So, this morning, I went for a run. It was short, slow and painful, but I did it. My kids were so happy this morning and wanted to know where my "race" was. I tried to explained I was just running around the neighborhood, but they can't differentiate. When I got home, tired, sweaty, and disappointed in my not-so-great run, they were here waiting and ready to stretch with me. That made my whole run worthwhile.
I'm getting back to the gym during my lunch breaks and packing my lunches. That is where I've had success and what I need to get back to. I haven't given it up, but have been getting there fewer times a week than I need/like to. I know what to do, I just need to do it and not let myself get "distracted."
Here we go again!