Monday, August 15, 2011
Today has been a bad day. I am still in the ranks of the unemployed and each day that I actually do something to get my out there and hopefully employed just makes me more frustrated. Instead of giving in and having a drink (or baking brownies) I just stopped. I came home. My kids (fortunately) laid down and took naps. In the meantime, I straightened my home office. I filed, for the first time in six months. I balanced my checkbook (to remind myself why I need a job). I cleaned. I hauled things that I have been too lazy to take upstairs and dumped them in another room. (Eh, it's a start.)
Sitting here reflecting on my day, I think it was good that I stopped. Sometimes I am guilty of just letting a situation spin more and more until all I can see is how far I am away from my goal. Kind of like our weight loss journey, my dear friends. We cannot beat ourselves up for that 800 mocha or that extra helping of dinner. Sometimes (and the thing is finding where the sometimes are and they are not) we really do need to just stop, realize we made a mistake and redirect. Today, I see that I need to redirect....on my house, which since I have been an unemployed teacher since May has....well, let's say it looks like an unemployed teacher and her classroom were dumped in my house.
I am reminding myself that I am smart, a hard worker, I have skills that people want, and I am not just going to stop. I am also reminding myself that I am attractive, I am working to become more healthy and I have a body that my husband wants (hee hee). Sometimes it is all about that moment that we remember who we are....and stop looking at who we want to be or who we are not.