Sunday, August 14, 2011
Today I am in at my sister's place. I am staying here to attend a 4 day workshop and then we are going to go down to her cottage for an extended weekend. I am scared silly!
Today marks the end of my 3rd week on Spark. I have never felt so empowered. I love the program, I love the community, the information, the trackers, everything. But by being back "home" again (my sister owns now what was our family home) I am so afraid everything will come undone and I won't be able to get back on track.
This is more than just calories and exercise, there is a lot of emotion tied up here. I have always been overweight and the memories of being an obese child/teen/young adult happened here. Everyone in my family has had or has a weight problem. I am not going to have control over the cooking. My sister is very reluctant to try new ways of cooking (long story) I am afraid if I cave in once r get off track it will be a downhill spiral.
However, I do have some strategies. I brought my dog, who will need a daily walk (sneaky hmm?) I brought some groceries to "help out" and to say thanks for letting me stay. Fruit and veges. Another sneaky ploy. I brought my laptop so I can login to Spark. And finally, I have given myself a stern talking to. Time to tack responsibility for my own health and if I hurt some feelings by not eating the fattening food, so be it. I can eat healthy at lunch at the workshop because I can pick where to go. This week long stay does not have to defeat me!
Wish me luck