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The way I view myself.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Over the years I have ALWAYS been concern how others viewed me.
Was I pretty enough? I sure didn't think so by a long shot.
Was I smart enough? Mom always told me my sister was prettier AND smarter, that sure answered that question.
Would the boys like me? If they did why didn't they ask me out.
And of course the age old concern...was I thin enough! I did not believe I was, after all my mom kept telling me I wasn't and of course my brother always told me I was a "beached whale" , I weighed 122 pounds!! (By the way he is now such a jerk, I feel sorry for his wife and daughters.

And then the epiphany!!

I now don't care what others say of think of me! I truly don't care!

Others can form their own opinions, and bully for them, but their opinions are just that, opinions and don't affect MY OUTCOME. Their time for controlling me is O-V-E-R! They had their chance and the only outcome I had was a weight of nearly 280 pounds!! All because I cared what THEY thought. Fad diets, starvation diets...I TRIED them all in the effort to please THEM! (this includes the fashion industry, BTW why aren't there any cute sundresses for me? I remember one designer saying he would not allow his designs on "fat people" if they wanted cute clothes then they should lose weight!! The audacity! )


I am learning to love myself enough to care about ME. I am doing this for ME and at this point I no longer care what others think of me. Only I affect my results. And to that end I LOVE ME!!

and you can take that to the bank emoticon
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  • JEGKA-
    Good for you and ditto what BIG said.
    3108 days ago
    I hope that you will read this blog over and over...
    I hope that you will hold onto this attitude and not let go...
    I hope that you will look yourself in the mirror and smile...


    Because YOU are worth it!

    3121 days ago
    Great blog!

    Sorry that your mother gave praises to your sibling that made you feel inadequate. Maybe she did not intend to do that. I have never experienced that with my mother. She praised us each and we were secure in her love. She encouraged each of us in our different endeavors.

    We do need to love ourselves and take care of ourselves though. Glad that you are taking care of you!


    3124 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/1/2011 11:18:32 AM
    way to go your almost there. the realization is half the battle.
    3124 days ago
  • BARBIE779
    emoticon We often worry so much about pleasing others that we forget about pleasing ourselves. If we don't get the desired response for our efforts, we give up. When you start to do it for you, then you will be happier.
    3124 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7013381
    I love your attitude! I can relate about unsupportive family members. That's what good friends are for!

    3124 days ago
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