A Little Less Bummed
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Well, I can't say I'm happy about my weight gain. I haven't been this heavy since I was pregnant. And that was when I was on the brink of giving birth and full of retained water. But, like any chronic illness symptoms, I think my weight gain is an indicator of a much deeper problem. Lately my writing, well, my PERSONAL writing, not my professional writing, has taken me down an unexpected road. It's time for me to start this plan over afresh. I have spent so much time pretending to be "good," lying to myself and fudging calories. For what? So I can continuously gain weight. I am forty pounds heavier than when I quit smoking 4 years ago. I don't mean to whine. But I feel very down about this. I'm not sure how I got so out of control.