I've been wanting to blog all week. But, everytime I started to type, I realized I didnt really have much to say! Sad.
This week has been once again, awful, off the charts in regards to my eating. Maybe honestly I'm not truly ready to lose this weight? I have no idea. What I know is, Temptation ALWAYS gets the best of me.
Weighed in this morning at 154. WOWZA. Climbing back up. And, although I ran 8 miles saturday and a little during the week, that doesnt do ANYTHING if you eat like a pig!
Today, I have my personal training session, and then I am heading to DISNEYLAND. I already planned on bringing a little backpack and filling it with a sandwich and a banana and WATER. Then tonight, I am meeting a friend for dinner and a movie. But then, I want to go home and figure out how to make my weight loss plan actually STICK. Because this, isnt working. And this, isnt healthy. And this, is not okay.
As I have shared previously, I was diagnosed with PCOS. I dont need to get into all that it does, but one thing is it means you are insulin resistant..umm around the corner could be diabetes. Has that scared me into changing the way I am eating? NOPE. Now, I have been tested for diabetes and I am far from there (as per the dr) but if I continue to eat this way and gain gain gain, not only will i hate the way I look in the mirror, but I know diabetes will be the case. And that is really NOT okay.
So, I seriously need to a get a grip. And have an intervention. I am so ashamed of how I have been eating and not taking care of myself.
And, so sad at how I have been so INACTIVE on spark and with my spark friends. Time to get back to it DAILY, and checking in with everyone so I continue to HAVE friendships. Because we all know "to have a friend, you must be a friend".
Have a happy, healthy friday everyone.