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I need an intervention..

Friday, July 22, 2011

I've been wanting to blog all week. But, everytime I started to type, I realized I didnt really have much to say! Sad.

This week has been once again, awful, off the charts in regards to my eating. Maybe honestly I'm not truly ready to lose this weight? I have no idea. What I know is, Temptation ALWAYS gets the best of me.

Weighed in this morning at 154. WOWZA. Climbing back up. And, although I ran 8 miles saturday and a little during the week, that doesnt do ANYTHING if you eat like a pig!

Today, I have my personal training session, and then I am heading to DISNEYLAND. I already planned on bringing a little backpack and filling it with a sandwich and a banana and WATER. Then tonight, I am meeting a friend for dinner and a movie. But then, I want to go home and figure out how to make my weight loss plan actually STICK. Because this, isnt working. And this, isnt healthy. And this, is not okay.

As I have shared previously, I was diagnosed with PCOS. I dont need to get into all that it does, but one thing is it means you are insulin resistant..umm around the corner could be diabetes. Has that scared me into changing the way I am eating? NOPE. Now, I have been tested for diabetes and I am far from there (as per the dr) but if I continue to eat this way and gain gain gain, not only will i hate the way I look in the mirror, but I know diabetes will be the case. And that is really NOT okay.

So, I seriously need to a get a grip. And have an intervention. I am so ashamed of how I have been eating and not taking care of myself.

And, so sad at how I have been so INACTIVE on spark and with my spark friends. Time to get back to it DAILY, and checking in with everyone so I continue to HAVE friendships. Because we all know "to have a friend, you must be a friend".

Have a happy, healthy friday everyone.







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  • APMAC_D
    I kinda feel the same way about myself and my journey. I need to formulate a new plan of action and new goals for each day. I need to keep losing and I FINALLY need to start reaching my goals. I need to resist temptation myself I am awful at that
    3375 days ago
  • BUTTERFLYEMERGE
    I like the positive changes! You can do this!! Keep up what works for you! Even when it's hard! ~HUGS~
    3379 days ago
  • MASRITE
    Ok, you're back. Now, you can do this. I'm getting back from vacation tomorrow and need to get back on track, too. So, we'll do this together. Let's go girl!!!
    3379 days ago
  • KKINNEA
    Keep working on your healthy habits. I didn't really work on myself until my mOm passed from diabetes - it still makes me sad that she had to go in order for me to really make the connection. You can do it!
    3379 days ago
  • PAMAZON
    I've also been struggling and have gained 10 pounds in the last 6 months. Its reminded me of when I was pregnant and would just eat all kinds of mess and think, well, I'll take care of this later. But when I'd try to pick up all the pieces of the weight loss puzzle and get it to stay together again, it would just fall apart. So this past weekend I sat down and set 7 goals. Small things that were really basic and key for me (don't eat after 9 p.m., no soda, no alcohol except Saturday, don't stand while eating, track workouts, etc.). I just wrote them on a piece of paper and stuck it on my fridge for all to see. I also committed to my workouts for the week. So far its been great! Yes, I COULD be doing more, but I may have gotten frustrated and given up. It's been 5 days and I'm going strong! I am looking forward to adding 2 new goals next week!

    You can do this! Check out Septemberspirits popular blog post about setting goals, very good stuff!
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    3379 days ago
  • LIGHTNINGRUNNER
    Girl - you have had a bad week - you were doing so well. FOCUS on what is important to you. Seriously important not just a should or a want to, but I MUST. I know you can do this.
    3379 days ago
  • AMC120
    You can do this!!! You just have to want it bad enough... AND choose your hard, lke you posted! Good luck on your eating and exercising this weekend!!! PLAN PLAN PLAN!!!! My will power is so much better now than it used to be. Baby steps .... You'll get there!!!

    **Remember- AUG.1ST BIKINI PICS (that may help with the will power!) emoticon
    3379 days ago
  • MK_MONKEYTOES
    Hey lady....first of all I know about PCOS as I have been recently diagnosed with it. One thing that helped me get on track was posting daily blogs with goals that I wanted to accomplish each day. (if interested, look at my blogs entitled Day # Getting back on track) It gave me a real reason to come on daily and really made me look at what I was doing in a day. This may or may not work for you.

    Something else to think about with PCOS is that it isn't a final diagnosis. It is definitely something that can go away you just have to eat properly and be very consistent with TIMING of eating. Basically you really should be eating every two hours....and ALWAYS pair your carbs with a protein. ALWAYS. That is a non-negotiable. I found that once I did that the weight started to come off. Plus I got rid of ALL drinks that weren't my Spark Energy in the morning (an Advocare product) or water. I cut out my diet soda. I don't know if you indulge in anything like that though. But diet products really mess with your pancreatic system and it is almost better to eat raw sugar than diet soda for those of us who are insulin resistant.

    Hope this helps some!! Feel free to send me a message if you want to talk!!
    Rhonda
    3379 days ago
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