My support system (or lack of ) :(
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Today while taking a quiz (of course to claim a spin on the bonus wheel) I chose the quiz that asks you "Are You Prepared to Reach Your Goals?" Well as I am answering the questions I came to # 4 "Who will you turn to when you need encouragement and support?" -- This question gave me pause because I had to answer "I don't know yet" How sad is that?
I cannot ask for support from my sisters or even talk to them about my challenges or successes (never have been able to) because it is either a comment that they don't have time or they are not dealing with sticking with a diet (or life change, or whatever we choose to define it) or they don't want to talk about it. There have been times that I have wanted to share my successes -not often- and I have been shut down b/c they think I am trying to brag and put them on the spot. I don't know but is it possible that they feel threatened or possibly guilty? That is not for me to figure out, I know that. But it is so sad that I have no one that I can physically call, or personly speak to when I just need help. What makes this even sadder it that I HAVE 4 SISTERS.
My mom, God bless her, tells me that I just need self-control and whenever I go to visit there is a ton of sweets that she and my dad have just made or junk food and snacks. Of course they have to offer and insist I have some and then some more. I am not strong enough to "JUST SAY NO" at this point!
I have no friends (my husband scares everyone off) and currently I have no job to go to.
My kids are grown and out of the house and they don't want to talk about "diet" or even successes that I am having. They are boys and they just don't talk about such things. The one encouragement I do get is from my son who many times will walk or hike with me. He even will walk the towpath trail even though he doesn't like it. Oh yes he does let me know.
That is sweet of him.
All-in-all I feel desolate too much of the time.
The only encouragement is from my SparkFriends
and it is so nice when out of the blue I recieve a genuine "thumbs up" or words of encouragement.
I usually don't blog a personal journal but that question really got me thinking and at the same time reflecting. I hope you don't give up on me too.