Tried to reinvent the wheel, and failed...
Saturday, July 16, 2011
So today I got on the scale and it read 215. I can't believe I'm back here again when I was so full of joy for getting below 200. However, I know exactly what I did wrong. I tried to reinvent the wheel. I thought I could find an easier, softer way. I thought I could find a faster, more efficient way. All it's done it led me right back here, to spark people, where I'm starting again today to track my calories and exercise.
I tried the HCG diet and logged my progress here with very detailed blog entries. It worked. I lost weight FAST. I also spent the entire time feeling deprived, hungry, and like I had lost my best friend... food. When the diet was over, I was instantly turned into a binge eater... something I had never been before. So what did I do? When I gained the weight back, I decided to do another round of HCG to get it back off. The definition of insanity is...?? Doing the same thing and expecting different results.
So I decided to read and try the Primal Blueprint diet. It's a lot like Paleo diet and urges people to eat meat, fruit and veggies, and plenty of fat. They say, don't worry about the fat... fat won't make you fat. I was excited that I didn't need to track my calories anymore... I could be free to eat as much as I wnated as long as I stayed within those food groups. Well, I gained weight on that, too. Apparently it IS possible to binge on those food groups, too. :)
So then, I decided not to worry about what I ate, but just to exercise a lot. That was my most recent decision and it didn't work so well, either. While it's awesome that I'm getting stronger, I gained 11 pounds in the last two weeks, and I feel sore all the time because I'm overexercising.
Yeah, I'm a stubborn chick. I keep thinking I can find a better way, something faster and easier than eating healthy foods in moderation, tracking calories and exercising regularly while the weight comes off agonizingly slowly.
So now that I've been beaten up by all these methods that simply did not work, I'm back where I started. I'm going to spark again, and pray for strength to stick with the methods outlined here. I also pray for patience. And I pray for support from someone out there who knows what I've been going through and can help guide me back to where I need to be.
I also pray that my story can help you, so you won't go out and do the same darn things that I did. Stay strong on your path and don't be tempted. Everything is going to be okay.