Extreme Push Challenge- Day 20
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
So- I am back in happy land- I had a chat with my coach, Lauren, last night- and I am glad I did because today was a much better day. :)
I decided to quit the scale- cold turkey for a while- I was letting a little 2 lb gain ruin several positives that I had overlooked- I am no longer going to put value in the scale. I left the 8 lb per month challenge- because I want to focus on my habits and my self esteem and confidence- and not a number on the scale.
So- I learned last night that there is value in counting calories. I counted my calories today (every bite) and I am very glad that I did. Im not even trying to stay under a certain number right now- Just trying to stay healthy and track so I know where I am at. I have never considered this babystep before. I was either all in- not going over 1200 cals per day- or forget it... and eating only God knows how many calories when I wasn't watching it because I am over coming a food addiction.
It felt good to give myself some freedom in the food world and still feel like I was in control/calorie counting. I did make some smart choices- like looking at calories on line before going to Fazoli's for lunch today. I thought of you Lauren when I was dunking my 150 calorie breadstick in Marinara Sauce! (She told me last night shes crazy for Marinara) Anywayz- I looked up my calories on line- Still got pasta- still ate bread stix, but the old Sherri would have been furious that the breadstick lady hadn't been back around yet- but I was happy with my 2 breadstix that I ate.
Tonight I went to the barn and did some stuff with Sinbad (my horse) to get ready for a show in September. While I was up there working with him, I was so happy. This is what I love. It is what I am good at. Its what I want to be better at and learn more of. I want to spend the next few weeks strengthing both me and Sinbad- then I want to spend the following week with the goal in mind to get to the point where I was last year when I went to the show. This will take me to about August 2nd- and then I will have the entire month to excel- and tap into my true riding potential. My mom is one of the best horsemen I know, so I can get some free lessons from her---
So I decided tonight that since I am already putting the next month and a half into preparing for this horse show- I really want to take the value out of my scale- I will not weigh myself until my horseshow is over. I am putting value in drinking my water daily. Counting my calories 6 days a week. Working out 6 times a week and training Sinbad 6 days per week.
Lauren said something last night that really hit me- I asked her what made her cross over from knowing what she needed to do and actually doing it. She explained (in much better words than what I am about to type I am sure- she said it good) That when you start to become confident, and your self esteem goes up, and you really start to value yourself- you find it easy to do good things for your body because you get to a place where you feel you are worth it. You think about how you feel after you eat stuff... And you will be like.. ya know- that 3rd slice of pizza looks really great but I think Im going to pass today because I know how I will feel if I eat that....
Ok- wow Sherri- Long entry today- You go girl!! :)
My workout today- no formal workout today but I walked and did some jogging beside my horse about an hour tonight. I also brushed him with a curry comb for about an hour afterwards... talk about an arm workout! I feel like I got good activity in today.
Calories- Counted all of my calories today- Yay! Trust in Lauren- there is value in the little things!
Motivation- my new found motivation above on the show- and continuing to focus on calories- that is my toughest thing
Positive- No more Scale making me sad! I am putting my values in things like calorie tracking, water drinking, and researching things to help me acheive my goals.
Thankful- I am thankful for resturants that have nutrition information! Thank you Fazoli's and Culvers (culvers is tomorrow- and I already checked it out... I normally don't eat out this much (really) but I have a lunch date with a friend almost every day this week. :)
Whew- Sorry for spelling errors- eyelids heavy -good night sparkies!! :)