Spark, my favorite place to ignore
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
So, here I sit in my office getting behind. I am should be getting ahead since vacation is three days away. But then I realized…..I am in the mood to beat myself up, so here it goes.
I have been yo-yoing so bad since my thyroidectomy last year it is not even funny anymore. Once the meds stabled me out and I was able to start losing weight again, I did what I always do and lost all motivation. Every once in a while I attempt to put on a shirt or pair of pants and realize I have lost all control, get pissed and re-motivate myself. I start eating healthy and even go to the gym….for all of one or two days.
My last go around I was screaming “DO OVER” all over spark, and I was truly motivated then……..lost it again. Well I just logged back on to spark and saw something. I had motivated some people in small ways, and now I have to put up or shut up. So here are my realizations:
1. Weight will have to come off slow, no more competitions.
2. I am pre-diabetic, heart issues run in my family big time and I use a CPAP…and I really want to live. I am 41 tomorrow.
3. It is easy to be unhealthy, so quit taking the easy way out. When I quit smoking it took years of quitting and DOING OVER until it stuck…this is no different.
4. My kids HAVE to learn from my good examples, not from my mistakes.
Vacation is T minus three days and let’s not play around, that means restaurants, cook outs and beer. Do not excess but enjoy. Live it up because I have to shop when we get back, and I am filling it up with healthy options only. Thank you Mike for coming back again and shouting DO OVER and to all the sparkers that make this place motivating every time I come back, this is my favorite place on the internet to ignore and pretend doesn’t exist, and the one place I can always turn to find my motivation again.