Are you happy right now?
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
I just posted this on the message board for "staying motivated" in response to the query, "are you happy right now?" i thought i would share my answer with you all:
amazingly.. yes! i say that because i've been waiting to change for years. now that i am ready, the difference is that i love myself where i am. i know that i can do better, but i finally realize that i am who i am, regardless of my size. i won't be any better or more likeable a person when i am down 30 pounds.. so why waste my life by disliking myself now?! i listened to my peers when they made an issue of my weight as a child. i wasn't what anyone would consider a concern...but they made me feel like i was flawed. i've carried that in my heart ever since. i finally am free because I made the decision to love me. i'm taking me along for this journey, and will dance all the way instead of holding my breath until the end.