Back where I started...
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Tonight is the first anniversary of my mom's death. Now, when she died I weighed around 210. A year later? 238... RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED in November 2009. And now I'm 40 years old (yesterday was my birthday)... and my goal for that day was to be 160 lbs... instead I'm a full 78 lbs MORE than that. I disgust myself... I disappoint myself.
I've been ashamed to come on SP, mainly because I was trying to be a good example, motivating others and encouraging myself... and here I am headed in the wrong direction... and WAY off track. I look as gross as my "Intro Pic" again... in fact, to think about it depresses me.
On top of it all, I fell about 5 weeks ago, and badly sprained my foot... only now (probably because of my weight, and on top of it being limited in activity) both my feet are swelling up (pitted edema). I know that is serious, but what am I going to do??? I am upping my potassium again (I think that might be the culprit along with the rest of it) and drinking lots of fluids, maybe to get things flushing. I'm also getting back on track... I hope.
Pray for me... please?