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Monday, June 20, 2011


By all rights, I should be angry.

I should be screaming and swearing at my betraying body that has, in one week, gained back the two back to back hard-fought losses of the prior two weeks. You know, the first losses in God knows how long?

Yeah, I should be PO'd.

And it's weird, but I'm not.

It is PMS time (which explains much of the gain, I suppose), and I should be RAILING.

I am also waiting to hear on two possible jobs. For people who told me last week that I'd hear by the end of that week. And the previous week they had made that promise about the prior week. Yeah, I should be LIVID.

But I'm strangely not.

Perhaps I've hit the zen sweet spot. I don't know.

I do know that getting angry and laying blame hasn't done a damned bit of good. All that's gotten me is tired. Not thinner, not faster, not a job. Just tired.

Now, this is not gonna be a rah-rah blog about how adversity is good for us, yadda yadda yadda.

Truth be told, adversity STINKS. Even if you want to do difficult things, there just comes a point where you wanna cry Uncle, where the 27+ miles walked and the 1600 - 1800 calorie diet followed last week shoulda done SOMETHING. It can be hard to make that effort and to feel that it is all for naught -- but the truth is, it was not for nothing.

Alas, though, it does not always come across on the scale. What is most maddening is the fact that putting it on is EASY. It does not take much to slip. It is, you are often like the little Dutch boy, with his finger in the dike, trying to hold back the river and finding it nigh well impossible.

But taking it off is HARD. Don't EVER let ANYONE tell you that this is easy. The first few steps can, actually, feel easy. But the long haul, the years, the miles, the stacked up plates full of good food choices that stretch from here to the moon?

Those are difficult.

This journey takes a LOT. Don't ever let anyone tell you this is a walk in the park, even if you're walking in the park when they tell you that.

You are the strongest people I know.
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    3448 days ago
    This is such an honest and true and inspiring blog. Thank you. I needed to read this today.
    3449 days ago
  • TEMPEST272002
    I can totally relate to pretty much everything you wrote. Change is hard. Making big changes is harder. It is so not fair that 3 weeks of focused effort can be undone with one week of careless eating. Glad you've made it to the zen-spot of acceptence (for today anyhow, lol). Those 2lbs are water weight. Weighing yourself PMS week is nothing but pure silliness & you should consider never doing it again.
    3453 days ago
    Sorry about the frustrating weigh in. No amount of time spent eating right and exercising is for naught, it just may take it's sweet time to appear on the scale.
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    I know you can. You know you can. And yeah it is hard, but we are warriors! Keep up the fight!
    3454 days ago
    The scale isn't the only method of measuring progress -- I agree that it is hard, but not agonizing is an important lesson! I'm making a shift, but I know that I'm going to address habits that contribute to overeating. I'm feeling pretty good that something has to get reflected physically for making that kind of a change.

    Stick in there for your health. keep finding the success path. This journey is not simple!
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    3454 days ago
    Just remember the scale is only a tool and does not tell the whole story. I agree that taking it off is hard especially since we live in a time when we want and see immediate results in so many things. Just like when I send this comment, I expect to see it within seconds after hitting the post comment button.

    Best wishes to you
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    3454 days ago
    Simple, yes.

    Easy? No.

    100% agreement, here.

    3454 days ago
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    Great blog and all too true! It may seem like it's all so simple to look at living healthier..... UNTIL you have to DO IT! It can be a real challenge to keep working towards your goals and not go running back to a bag of cookies, chips or whatever your old vice was, especially when you have a setback in your progress. CONGRATS to you on pushing forward and not getting all worked up over one minor setback! You can do this! emoticon
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