Trying to regroup and get back before I gain anymore wt!!!!
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Its been a month since I blogged about anything and one of my goals was to do this 3-4 times a week even if it was just a few words. So tonight is my first blog of the week. Its 1130pm and I need to go to bed cause I have to be up at 5:30am for a long day tomorrow. First 12.5hrs at work then an hour mandatory meeting after work then to the gym for much needed cardio!
I have fallen down a little and am pulling myself back hopefully! I didn't log food for 5 days and I track all meals and cals. I have eaten out more than ever this past few days and who really knows what my cals have been. My exercise has been mim. 2 50 min days of strength training but no cardio, A couple days I honestly felt so exhausted I could hardly do anything. I had thoughts of is this worth all the extra time and energy?
I have made good progress since I got really started Jan 27th its been slow but I also have been fighting the Big M (menopause) I don't even want to say it! Sorry if any men are reading but..... I wont get in to it don't worry LOL. I just feel UGH!!!!!!!!! I also finally started a new job and that's pretty stressful in it self I guess.
I just feel like I am letting my self down. I have been told that I except to much from myself and I need to stop this and be realistic about things.( My dtr) I do try to push myself and sometimes it is disappointing not to be able to do what you think you can. So I am looking at my goals and plan again!!! I am doing several challenges at this time maybe that will help to keep me in line again. I did get a trainer to help me with strength training, balance and flexibility which I do not have any of these. I have to work hard cause it is not cheap and I want my moneys worth!!!! I think after a week with her I need to see if we can step it up cause I am not achy any more. I will see her on thursday am so I will let you know if I survived the workout or not!! LOL
So I have vented a little and felt sorry for me enough. I actually am blessed I can do this and have the time to get healthy. I need to get of the POT and MOVE again, I did track my food today for the first time in 5 days!!! So thanks for listening to me carry on some. I guess I needed it...
Hope everyone has a great Wednesday!!! Smile and Be Happy!!