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Tuesday, June 14, 2011

ok, so I'm sick of all the pep talks I've been giving myself. It's tough when you are tired of hearing yourself. I'm at rock bottom and I need to get myself in gear. Here's some facts:

I'm fat. Don't tell me I'm not, because I know I am, you know I am, a now I know you're just placating me.
I finally coming to grips with my depression- I'm lower than I've ever been but I'm starting to realize I can't wish it away, and that I probably need to stay on medication for the sake of the people around me.
I'm a terrible eater- my lunch was coca-cola.
I'm a new mom of a beautiful 10 month old girl. I'm breastfeeding and tied up in knots about when I will wean her. I work 2 nights a week and the rest I'm home with her.
the last thing I want to do is get up tomorrow morning and exercise...

But here's the plan.

I need to get my head on straight. Not quite sure how to do that. Maybe start taking my prozac again. Maybe just be good to myself.

I can't plan out the whole weight loss journey. It doesn't work. I can't plan for the week. But I can plan for tomorrow.

When the baby wakes up, I will nurse her and then have some breakfast of eggs with my husband. I will drink water, 2-3 glasses. I will take a vitamin, mag supplement, and calcium. (I tend to drink lots with my meals. And i always have to take my pills with food. I haven't decided about the prozac yet.)
Then I will dress the baby, dress myself (in the new workout clothes I bought tonight) and grab some water, and go for a walk.
I aim for a leisurely walk of about 45 min. I am so out of shape that I don't have to worry about speed right now. I won't use my hrm since I haven't calibrated since I gained 35 pounds. (ouch)
Lunch: salad! with chicken and ceasar dressing. I'm not going to skimp on my dressing because I'm doing major strides having salad. Green stuff! With water!
Dinner: who knows, since my mother in law is coming over after lunch and the whole evening is up in the air.
hopefully before my mother in law gets here I can do the dishes so my house doesn't look like the housekeeper is clinically depressed.
and the depression...perhaps it won't eat me up tomorrow.
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    Looks like we have quite a bit in common. I am finally coming to terms with my depression and taking my meds. If you ever need to talk or vent or anything, I am here, just send me a message. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3617 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/15/2011 12:15:38 AM
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