Guess what I've spent the last four months doing?
Putting the 30 lbs I lost last year back on, plus another 5 or 6 to add to my collection. Isn't that just grand?
I'm past the self loathing, for the most part. I haven't fully forgiven myself, but I am ready to move forward at least. I can't believe I did it. I'm sure my story is one that is being told again again by people trying to lose weight. In fact, I recall reading a post by a member here who gained her weight back and my heart broke for her. I just knew it would never be ME. I felt so great when I was losing weight. I was fitting into clothes I hadn't worn in years. People told me almost daily that they could see my weightloss. Now what was once my "fat clothes" before are now tight and I weigh more than ever!
I am bummed! I recently went back home to visit family. I was SUPPOSED to be 50 pounds lighter for that trip, and instead I was even heavier! And I had told people that I'd lost 30 pounds! How humiliating.
Worse is the emotional effect it's having on me. I feel horrible! I'm just so very tired of this battle and so frustrated that I can't find the motivation and willpower to stick to something.
Enough. I'm trying a new approach I read about (article attached). I'm really excited by the whole concept because it seems to get rid of all the aspects of dieting that I struggle with most. I get overwhelmed with too much information, mathwork, restrictions. This seems so basic and most reviewers admitted that while you should be careful about WHAT you're eating, this plan should work.
These are the four rules I will follow, and they are the ONLY rules unless I introduce more for myself when I am ready:
1. Eat 8 ounces of food every three hours
2. NO SUGARY DRINKS
3. Do not skip meals
4. Do not tell anyone what you are doing (you guys don't count, you're like extensions of myself and you're not here to sabotage me)
So I've been thinking alot about it and waiting for a day when I really felt up to trying again (I've learned by now that if you aren't in the spirit, starting a new diet is pointless LOL). Today is the day. I want to get into my cute summer clothes before summer is over and it means starting NOW. I also want to see what I can accomplish by the end of the year. I'll be blogging every day about what I'm doing and how it's going, or I will try to.
It is ON LIKE DONKEY KONG.