First of all I want to wish everyone who is observing Memorial Day a great weekend
. Mine not shape out to be so great---I got the stomach flu yesterday and am feeling residually 'crappy' (har har!)
Yesterday my niece Lydia had her third birthday party. It was great until I saw the pictures. I believe I might be thinner in my head than in reality and I am truely not photogenic.
I am starting to wonder if I ever lost nearly 60 pounds. Mentally I feel just as fat as I ever did and I feel like the pictures do little to disprove it. I have what I like to call 'hound dog' face....even though my face is very long I have some jowls. My parents have some serious jowls too, even though my Dad is an average weight and my Mom overweight; I know this isn't going to get any better I was hoping that losing the weight was going to fix this...but no.
I actually very upset right now. I am watching my calories pretty closely (I eat 1500-1800 daily, usually 1500) I exercise to the extent that today and earlier this week I had to skip to days because my legs were so sore (I burn anywhere from 1800-2700 calories in exercise per week.) I no longer have access to a scale so who knows what I weigh. I promised myself I wouldn't check again until August.
I just feel like I am going no where. Who knows I might have lost five pounds since I last checked but it just doesn't look like it in the pictures. I hate that!!!
Anyway, I am going to keep exercising and eating as best as possible but I have to be honest, weight loss or not if I don't see improvement in the chin region by this time next year I am considering getting chin-lipo-reduction surgery. I know that sounds drastic but this is how important this is to me. I am worried about the risks and follow up needed. Has anyone ever done this?
Anyway, to sum up I got the stomach flu, am really sore from exercise that may or may not be helping and really dissappointed in any picture that is taken of me. Boourns, tell me I am not the only one.
Maybe a better photo angle?
My brother & I. In the great tradition of other Native American/caucasian kids we have long faces, prominent cheekbones and shapely noses :)
I hate this picture! My Mom thought she was being funny and took it randomly.
Could this person really be 178 pounds? :/