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Dissappointed in my freakin face...and other stuff...

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Hello everyone,

First of all I want to wish everyone who is observing Memorial Day a great weekend
emoticon. Mine not shape out to be so great---I got the stomach flu yesterday and am feeling residually 'crappy' (har har!)

Yesterday my niece Lydia had her third birthday party. It was great until I saw the pictures. I believe I might be thinner in my head than in reality and I am truely not photogenic.

I am starting to wonder if I ever lost nearly 60 pounds. Mentally I feel just as fat as I ever did and I feel like the pictures do little to disprove it. I have what I like to call 'hound dog' face....even though my face is very long I have some jowls. My parents have some serious jowls too, even though my Dad is an average weight and my Mom overweight; I know this isn't going to get any better I was hoping that losing the weight was going to fix this...but no.

I actually very upset right now. I am watching my calories pretty closely (I eat 1500-1800 daily, usually 1500) I exercise to the extent that today and earlier this week I had to skip to days because my legs were so sore (I burn anywhere from 1800-2700 calories in exercise per week.) I no longer have access to a scale so who knows what I weigh. I promised myself I wouldn't check again until August.

I just feel like I am going no where. Who knows I might have lost five pounds since I last checked but it just doesn't look like it in the pictures. I hate that!!!
Anyway, I am going to keep exercising and eating as best as possible but I have to be honest, weight loss or not if I don't see improvement in the chin region by this time next year I am considering getting chin-lipo-reduction surgery. I know that sounds drastic but this is how important this is to me. I am worried about the risks and follow up needed. Has anyone ever done this?

Anyway, to sum up I got the stomach flu, am really sore from exercise that may or may not be helping and really dissappointed in any picture that is taken of me. Boourns, tell me I am not the only one.

Maybe a better photo angle?

My brother & I. In the great tradition of other Native American/caucasian kids we have long faces, prominent cheekbones and shapely noses :)

I hate this picture! My Mom thought she was being funny and took it randomly.

Could this person really be 178 pounds? :/
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  • -SHAWN-
    I don't understand your disappointment in these pictures.
    They are quite lovely images of you.
    Seems like distorted thinking to me.
    3212 days ago
    You can do something about the sagging under the chin. Thrust your lower jaw out (you will feel the pull on the muscles)and hold that for a few seconds. Repeat 100 times a day.

    I know of a person in her 60 who did this and lost all the jiggly skin.
    3232 days ago
    It takes awhile to see big changes. Stay consistent and stick with it! I think you look very pictures in the pictures.
    3233 days ago
    I think that we are always harder on ourselves than anyone else. We also judge ourselves in ways no one else does and we are harder on ourselves than anyone else. It's important to watch how we view ourselves and our body image. I have/had a louse body image and I have to tell myself constantly that I am someone that is pretty and that my body is not as bad I let myself believe. It is a constant struggle that we have to work on and it's important that when you find yourself talking down to yourself that you insert those positive comments to counteract the negative. You are a very pretty young woman and what you are seeing in yourself I don't think that anyone else is.
    3233 days ago
  • WINNIE1978
    I have a hard time seeing the changes in myself too and I actually wrote a blog post about it recently. I think it is just a mind game. We are so used to seeing and thinking of ourselves as big, fat, or any number of other negative words, that we fail to really SEE the changes.

    3234 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/29/2011 12:44:40 PM
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