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Binging and Breakthroughs - Day 1/94*

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Yesterday was a bad, bad day. I accidentally - ha, accidentally? - declared it a 'fat' day. That clearly has BAD SIGN written all over it. Not only was yesterday a 'fat' day, it was a binge day. It's never a good day when you somehow end up with food and/or beverages from Starbucks, Wendy's, Mcdonalds and Tropical Smoothie...

Trust me. Yesterday was NOT in my budget - calories or money.

So yes, I'm being honest which is allegedly the best policy, but the truth of yesterday? AWFUL. PAINFUL. HORRIBLE.

But you know what happened? The sun - thankfully - came up. I was wide awake by 5:30am and at the gym by 5:55am. I ran a miles and then walked half a mile. I did 32 knee push-ups. I did a set of lat pulldowns. I did 25 crunches.

What I didn't do? I didn't let yesterday interfere with my today. I let yesterday have its place in the hall of shame. I know I can't be the only person struggling with weight issues that has "those days." You know the ones. Perhaps yours consist of fried foods, comfort foods, chips, cookies or other sweets, etc. You let your day revolve around food and your choices spiral out of control until you don't recognize yourself. You might not even like yourself. You would rather continue eating and sabotaging yourself to the point where you don't even know how to climb out of that dark place.

But you know what? I crawled out. I told myself before I went to bed last night that yesterday was unacceptable and that tomorrow (this morning) wasn't an opportunity to pretend like the destruction didn't happen, rather focus on what's broken and how to prevent it from happening again.

So, how do I keep it from happening again? I had all the answers until this question, but I do know this:
-I ran today and it felt good. REALLY good. It reminded me that hey, I LIKE getting up and working out before work and I LIKE how my body feels after a run.
-I can either dwell on yesterday's mistakes or embrace today's chance to change. By dwelling on the mistakes of yesterday and all of the other 'yesterdays' i lose the opportunity to be successful. That's no fun. I like being successful. And happy. And healthy. And fit. (Well, I think I'd like being fit. I'll let you know when I get there!)
-I like myself better when I'm happy. I'm happy when I eat right and exercise. I am a better wife, friend, puppy mommy, daughter, sister, all-around Ashley when I take time to put myself first. By putting myself first, I'm not being selfish. In all honesty, I'm allowing myself the opportunity to be and do better for other people.

So, here I am. Day one. Again.

(You may be saying to yourself, "but Ashley, didn't you JUST post a blog like, last week with the same tune?")

Yes, I'm a broken-record. But I assure you my song is still playing...slow, quiet and probably off-key. But it's there.

As the song lyrics say, "There is beauty in the breakdown."

*For the next 94 days leading up to the wedding - EEKS! YAY! WOO! - I will post more frequent updates on how things are going, how I'm feeling, what's working, what's not working, etc.
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  • CARRAND
    Your great attitude will carry you through.
    3522 days ago
  • MOUNTAINMERMAID
    WOW! Motivating Blog for ME!!!
    Thank You...
    Yes!! Don't let 1 Day of 'I'm gonna EAT what I want' derail You!
    YOU are right back on the SUCCESS Horse!!!
    Did You Say WEDDING???
    Is it Your's???
    There's still time to Change Your Mind!

    GO emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3522 days ago
  • SANDBBAR
    I have had those days more than I'd like to admit. But you've got the right perspective on this, and thank you so much for sharing, because I needed to see this today! You CAN do this Ashley!!! emoticon
    3522 days ago
  • KAREN_NY
    This is 100% Can-Do!! emoticon
    K:)
    3523 days ago
  • EYES_ON_THEPRAZ
    You have a great attitude and you're not giving up! You can do it! Check in with us daily, hourly if you need to! LOL!
    3523 days ago
  • VTCRICKET84
    thank you. i was worried about posting this blog. i love sparkpeople because i didn't have an outlet for these feelings elsewhere. i have another blog, facebook, etc. but only felt comfortable sharing here.
    3523 days ago
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    We all have 'one of those days' but you have the right attitude to keep moving forwar! Good luck to you as you cintinue on your healthy journey!
    3523 days ago
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