I think I'm finally going to do this!

So I think I've wasted to much time saying "I'll start monday or tomorrow"
I'm going to do this. I think i just need some help and motivation. It's hard.
But I think it finally hit me when I went to my doctor for the first time in a long time and my health has really gone south. I want to be healthy and I want to start a family one day.. Maybe one day soon. But not until I'm healthy and until I reach my goal. And of course I want to look and feel better about myself. I want to be able to shop at any store I want to. Not just plus size stores. I hate not being able to fit into anything. I think my weight has something to do with my stress and anxiety. I just want to live a happy healthy life bc right now I'm not at all.
And I know it sounds bad but I want to look good for my husband. I'm embarrassed about going places with him bc I'm ashamed he has to be out with "that fat girl".
I just want to feel "normal".
I just need someones/anyones help and motivation.