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Monday, May 09, 2011

dear former motivated-self,

i'm sorry. it's not you. it's me. i'm the one that has been lazy, been complacent and been eating like the world is ending tomorrow. but at least you'll be nice and warm with that extra FOUR pounds i have helped packed on over the past couple weeks right (in addition to the other four you had already gained)? no? bummer.

i promised to love, honor and obey our new lifestyle, perspective and body; however, i haven't lived up to my half of the bargain. i've been consistently nagging you to make poor choices and to skip out on exercising.

i know you are frustrated and this sounds like every other time you've succeeded in losing weight just to gain it back, but you have come too far to fail.

let's try this again. start over. fresh.
please?
-lazy self



dear lazy self,
you lied. you said that nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. that's a load of crap recently. i still feel that way, but you...you gave in! you had fried foods! you had a mountain-load of twix bars! you had margaritas! how can you expect to get healthy if you can't avoid, or at least moderate, temptation? huh?

you have so many people cheering you on and looking at you to be a good example of health. do you really want to let them down? more importantly, do you want to let yourself down?

you get ONE more chance to get it right. starting today. but instead of saying all of the right things, i don't want your plan. i want you to tell me what you've DONE so next week, i expect a full report showing me what you did all this week. whether it is exercising 10 minutes a day, drinking water, etc. i don't care. just SHOW me something.

believe it or not, i want you to succeed. so starting today, with your 4.4 (let's be precise shall we?) weight gain, you are re-starting - again - at 210.4.

your goal is to eventually be at 158, but for now, we'll take just getting you to 199.9...can you do that for yourself?

i miss being around. you are much more fun, energetic and you feel better when you are your motivated, active, healthy self.

get your act together.
-motivated self
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  • PROF_STEPH
    SO true- this is the same conversation I have had with my Lazy self and Motivated self! Sometimes lazy self needs its time to be lazy, but as long as Motivated self takes over most of the time, you'll achieve your goals!!! emoticon
    3536 days ago
  • ROSENJ1965
    Love it. Great way of putting it out there that we are, in the long run, only accountable to ourselves. And it's nice that your "motivated self" is giving you another chance. :)

    I think it's good to go with a smaller goal, too! I've been breaking mine up anywhere from 2-5 lbs over a short period (month, 2 months, etc.). It really helps me focus on what I REALLY need to do.

    Good luck!!! You can SOOO do this!
    3538 days ago
  • KAREN_NY
    LOVE THIS. I love that you are asking yourself for results, not just plans. What a tempation THAT is, lol! Can't wait to see your celebration! :)
    3539 days ago
  • JMCADE
    Great Blog! I see the 'motivated me' winning in this battle. Will be watching for the update.
    3539 days ago
  • RUTHXG
    Really fun conversation--& I know it's serious too! "Motivated me" will prevail here, I have no doubt.

    Thanks for your thoughtful comment on my blog. So kind!

    Go emoticon !
    3539 days ago
  • SASSACAIA
    I love it! Keep that lazy self in line!

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    3539 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3992584
    BEST.BLOG.I'VE.READ.TODAY!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much for sharing it. I think it's speaking directly to me after my weekend.

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    Let's do this!
    3539 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/9/2011 1:46:45 PM
  • MONAKIN314
    Great Blog!!!

    You can Do IT!!
    3539 days ago
  • SEATTLESIMS
    you can do it!! I have to do the same, back up 3 lbs from my lowest! gotta use this 5% challenge to really get the ball rolling!!
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    3539 days ago
  • JECKIE
    You can do this!

    Check out some wisdom from another of our own regarding "starting over"

    http://www.sparkpeople
    .com/mypage_public_journal_indi
    vidual.asp?blog_id=3834376
    3539 days ago
  • EYES_ON_THEPRAZ
    emoticon blog... you can do it!!
    3539 days ago
  • KAITLYNSNAMMY
    Oh my goodness! These are my thoughts exactly except Milky Way bars made it my way!!!!
    Thank you for writing this insightful blog, my new friend. Please see mine of this morning. We are on the same page and will get through this book, one day at a time. :)

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    3539 days ago
  • TARANITUP
    These inner conversations are sometimes all it takes to get us back moving. What I have had to learn though is to kick my "fat devil" to the curb and KEEP MOVING FORWARD. If your inner voice starts to nag at you and talk to you in ways you'd never talk to a friend, just kick it out of your head and make moves that will HELP shut it up (exercise being a great one!)

    I think you'll get rid of those 4.4 pretty quickly :)
    3539 days ago
  • SANDBBAR
    Great blog Ashley! I'm right there with you with 10 pounds back. emoticon
    But, I have something very important to tell you...you MUST keep your program on the "front burner" so to speak!! See, you now have your wedding there, and not that your wedding isn't important, but I think sometimes when our weight goal isn't number one...we tend to sneak in a little here and there...our minds are occupied with something else, so we kind of forget...
    I know I have done this!! When my program is uppermost in my mind, I will refuse desserts, I will shop well for food, I will get in my walks no matter what and find time for strength exercises... I will be focused on what it is I am trying to accomplish. When something else comes along to take over the top spot in my mind...watch out! So, knowing this, life IS about different "things" coming up that take top spots in our minds...so how do we remain focused on our program?? I am still trying to figure that out!
    3539 days ago
  • ME_FIRST
    Great blog. I have been there often. Why do we break promises we make to ourselves when we would never, ever break promises we make to others without a very serious reason? Hmmm. I just don't know. Let's stay true to the promises we make to ourselves and get to onederland. We can do it!! Yvonne

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    3539 days ago
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